Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter 17

Sehun P.O.V.

I tilted my head, while listening to Adem, who was telling my about his student life. His laugh was very contagious and I felt good. He made me feel good. I had finished my koffie and Sangjin looked at my while smiling. 'I don't know very much about you, Sehun.' He sad next, while he put his elbows on the table and put his head in his hands. 'Don't you read the paper or something?' I joked, but the boy shook his head. I shrugged ands sat straight. I honestly didn't want to talk about the group right now with everything going on, but it was a very big part of my life. 'What do you want to know?' I asked. Our eyes met and he leaned back again. 'You find it hard to talk about yourself.' He concluded from my facial expresion. 'You could call it that. It's just, it's a bit of a hard time at the moment and it isn't going great, you know.' The boy nodded. 'Shall we take a walk? A bit of fresh air, thinking about nothing.' He asked me. I nodded and Sangjin got up to pay for the drinks. He talked some more with the man behind the bar, before walking towards me. 'Where are we going?' I asked, while we excited the café. Sangjin just shrugged his shoulders. So we just walked towards the park where we met in this morning.

It was quite a walk and I felt my legs getting weary. 'Hey!' I looked at Sangjin and then at the boy in front of us. I felt my eyes widen and I took a step back. 'You know Dongyoo?' Sangjin asked surprised. I looked at the boy next to Sangjin, who was smiling at me. 'Yes, he definitely does.' Dongyoo said. 'What a surprise that you also encountered Sangjin.' He said to me. I put my hands in the pockets of my jacket and bit my lip. 'How do you know each other?' I asked. 'Oh, Dongyoo and I go to the same university. He is a good friend of mine.' Sangjin explained. I looked from Dongyoo to Sangjin and shook my head. 'I.. I have to go.' I mumbled and turned around. I walked away with big steps, back to the hotel I was staying at.

'Sehun, wait! Sehun!' I started to run but still heard his footsteps echo through the night. I was almost at the hotel. I could see the building in front of me, but two arms around my middle stopped me before getting there. 'Shit.' I mumbled and sighed. 'Why did you run away?' I turned around and looked at the concerned eyes of Sangjin. I bit my lip and ran my hand through my hair. 'I'm in love, Sangjin. I'm in love with a boy and he left. He left!' I yelled. 'Calm down, Sehun.' He told my in a quiet voice and he took my inside the hotel. Inside he grabbed my and held my close. 'You are in love?' He asked in a hushed voice. I nodded and looked outside. 'Yes, but he left me. And... and.' I stuttered. 'And?' encouraged Sangjin me. 'I almost had sex with Dongyoo, because I felt horrible. He was very insistent and it didn't feel right. I can't face that boy.' I told Sangjin and looked at him. He just smiled. 'Dongyoo can be very rude to people, he normally isn't like that. Honestly, I don't understand why he acts like that when he goes out.' He said shaking his head. 'I understand that it didn't feel right, especially since your friend is gone.' The boy looked around and put a hand on my shoulder. 'Listen. I am not looking for a relationship, I don't like boys to be honest.' I laughed. 'But I do want to be friends with you and that is possible without Dongyoo around.' I smiled and nodded. 'You don't mind me thinking like that about your friend?' I asked him. Sangjin shook his head and laughed. 'No, not at all. We, me and rest of the group, hear it more often. You should come to the university sometime, when you're here again. You could meet the rest of my friends.' He said while smiling. I nodded and hugged him. 'Sehun?' I looked op at him. 'Yes?' - 'I just wondered, the boy that has left. Do you mean Luhan?' He asked quietly. 'You do read the paper.' I answered in a small voice and looked at my feet. 'I happen to read it in a paper that was laying somewhere. I was bored, normally I wouldn't do that.' I felt a tear escape my eye and I clenched my fists. Only hearing his name hurts. 'Hey, it's gonna be okay.' Sangjin said quickly. I shrugged. 'I miss him.' I whispered. I felt the chest of my new friend again and started crying, wetting his shirt.

'Hey, what's wrong with him?' I heard Baekhyun asking. I pushed myself away from Sangjin and looked at him with a sad smile. 'What happened?' He asked again. I shook my head and Sangjin took the word. 'I asked about Luhan. I shouldn't have done that, right?' He answered. Baekhyun walked towards me and put his arms around me. 'Maybe you should fly to wherever he is. You should go to the boy.' Sangjin said, mainly directed towards Baekhyun. 'We can't. The tour isn't finished yet.' He answered. Sangjin nodded and looked at me briefly. 'Well, I should probably get going. I'll text you, alright?' He asked me. I looked up at him and nodded. He smiled and turned around to walk out the door.

When he was gone, Baekhyun took me to the elevator to go to my room. 'That boy isn't good for you.' He said then. 'Damn it Hyung, you're not my father.' I said pissed. The older boy sighed and gently squeezed my shoulder. 'He is very nice, Hyung. He is nicer that Dongyoo, a lot nicer.' The fact that the two boys know each other, I didn't say. That is probably for the best right now. 'Good, but Sehun-ah, we have to leave in two days.' He said in a soft voice. 'Yes, I know. We can't change that.' The doors opened and we walked into the hallway, leading to my room. 'Where is the rest? Haven't seen them all day.' I asked. 'Most of them are exploring the city and some are off to some party. I wasn't in the mood to join the rest. And you hadn't returned yet so I stayed.' He explained. I nodded and walked towards my room. 'Can I stay with you?' Baekhyun asked. I turned around in surprise, but nodded and sat down on my bed. He closed the door and sat down next to me. It was quiet for a while and my eyes were slowly closing. 'Sehun, you want to lay down?' He asked me. I nodded and lay down, my head on my soft pillow. Baekhyun put a blanket over me to keep me warm. After that he walked to the other side of the bed and laid down next to me. He put his chin on my shoulder and put his arms around me. 'I miss this.' I mumbled. I felt his breathing in my neck and closed my eyes, while grabbing his hand. 'I do too.' He said quietly. 'We used to do this a lot, you remember? It's almost as if we aren't friends anymore these days.' I whisper. 'Sehun...' Mumbled the older boy behind me. 'No, nothing Sehun. You know I'm right. We are a group, but you and Chanyeol seem to be a group within ours. Like you don't want anyone else.' It stayed quiet. 'I feel alone now Luhan isn't with us anymore.' I say. For the first time, the tears stayed away. 'I'm sorry.' Baekhyun sniffed and I slowly turned around in his arms. 'Don't cry Hyung.' I say gently and remove his tears. 'I miss him too, Sehun. You are not the only one. Xiumin misses Luhan, Kris misses Luhan, EXO misses Luhan. Chanyeol misses Luhan too, he just doesn't know how to deal with it. It makes him grumpy and blunt. I become quiet myself, actually.' He explained while sobbing. 'And you-' 'Ssst.' I hold him and smiled lightly. I kissed his forehead. 'We'll be all right, okay?' I said, not convinced of my own words. I knew I was lying, but I couldn't be as sad as Baekhyun was at the moment. The smaller boy nodded and smiled a small smile. I took his hand and squeezed it gently. We were silent for quite a while. The moment I wanted to say something to Baekhyun, I noticed his steady breathing. He had fallen asleep. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep too. I was happy that Baekhyun told my everything he just did and that I wasn't all on my own. My grip on Baekhyuns hand slacked and I fell asleep.