It's love

Part 21

Natasha's POV

My eyes are tired. I should have followed Steve's advice and got to bed earlier. I will not tell him that though, he'd be too proud. I just couldn't fall asleep. Steve is laying warm and cozy right beside me. He's even breaths makes me calm and his arm around me makes me warm. He looks so peaceful while asleep. His beautiful face is relaxed and there's no worry. It's like everything's going to work out. Even though I had this wonderful thing beside me, I couldn't fall asleep. My body is dead tired but my mind is wide awake. So is the baby in my stomach. I'm worried. No, I'm scared. I've been scared from the beginning. Everyone knows that I'm not suitable for a mother, even Steve knows that. And now that it might be something wrong with the baby, it freaks me out. The idea of this beautiful baby being hurt because of me. My body, my serum. It would be my fault. It's growing too fast, it's not normal. Steve's never going to forgive me. I know myself, I'm going to end up hurting this baby. That's what I do, I hurt people. I started shaking and moved closer to Steve, trying to warm up my ice cold body. He reacted at the movement and at his warm body being greeted by a cold one. I didn't mean to wake him up, but I did just that anyway.
"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you." I mumbled.
He didn't answer. Instead he wrapped me closer, embracing me in a really tight hug and kisses my face. I smiled, trying to forget the things in my mind. And I did right after I fell asleep in his arms.

Steve's POV

A high sound woke me up. It's the phone, in the middle of the night? I picked it up and answered.
"Yes?"
"I'm sorry to wake you up Cap." Tony said. "But I got some bad news."
"What is it?" I said, trying to keep my voice normal.
"It's Nick. He got killed a few hours ago. Tony said.
"Who?"
"Peter. Meet me at three o'clock tomorrow. We'll talk more then." Tony continued.
All I could say ways "okey" and "bye".
I turned around and faced Natasha. Pain bubbled inside my stomach. It was greeted with guilt.
"Who was it?" She said.
"Tony. He, eh, wanted to go trough somethings tomorrow."
"What kind of things?"
"Bruce had some ideas of something, you know, technology. I'm not good at that stuff." I said, trying to laugh a little. She looked at me with a blank expression. I couldn't read her.
"About Bruce." I said trying to change subject. "What happened?"
Natasha stared at me for a few second before she opened her mouth.
"Oh right." She said coldly. "He has a major crush on me so we basically made out."
"What?!" I said serious.
She walked out of bed and started to put on some clothes.
"You kissed Bruce? Willingly?!"
"Yeah."
"Why did you do that?" I said upset.
"What are you jealous or something?" She said coldly, focusing on her jeans.
"What the hell are you doing Nat? Of course I'm jealous. Does this mean you lied before?"
"Yes, I lied about that." She said cold.
"Why would you do that? It freaking hurts Nat." I said angrily.
She looked at me, smiling.
"You're right Rogers, it does hurt when someone's lying. So maybe you should stop doing that!"
I looked at her, and I didn't know what to say.
"What the hell did Tony say?! I'm not stupid Rogers!" She screamed at me.
"Why do I have to tell you, you don't even seem to love me."
"You're such an idiot. Of course I love you. You really believe that I would kiss Bruce?! He kissed me and I pushed him away pretty badly! Just stop lying you jerk."
She walked out of the room. I followed.
"Natasha!" I screamed after her.
"Why the hell aren't you telling me?!" She screamed back.
"For the gods sake I'm trying to protect you!" I screamed back. We stood still, staring at each other. I took some deep breaths to calm myself down.
"I'm so sorry. It's Nick. He's dead. He was killed a few hours ago. I'm sorry Nat." I said, feeling a rock in my throat. Natasha stood still, not moving a finger. She had her eyes on mine. For a second I worried if she was even breathing.
"Follow me." She said. Her voice didn't show any emotions. It was as cold as ever. I did as she told me and I put on a shirt and we walked out of the apartment.
"Where are we going? Nat, are you okey?" I said as we sat down in the car.
"Tony's. And I don't remember the last time I was okey."
She pressed the gas and the car flew over the streets.

Natasha's POV

"Nat, wait up!" Steve shouted behind me as I ran inside Tony's house.
"Mr. Stark is asleep Ms. Romanoff." Jarvis said as she entered the building.
"I don't give a damn." I said annoyed by him. My body was filled with anger. Nick's dead because of one person. And everyone knows who that is.
I went into Tony's bedroom to find him a sleep, oddly enough. To my relief, he didn't sleep naked. I grabbed his leg and threw him onto the floor. He woke up. His eyes showed more fear than a stag about to be killed.
"Romanoff, what..?" He said, having a hard time speaking during his shock.
I pressed him onto a wall, holding his t-shirt with my fists.
"How the hell did it happened?!" I screamed. "You were supposed to watch over him. You wanted him dead. Admit it! It would be the easiest way to get rid of the problems, wouldn't it? Kill someone even though they might be innocent?!" I screamed at him, feeling my chest break.
"Yeah, like you haven't done that before. Killed an innocent. The only difference is that I didn't." He said and I backed away. I couldn't move. My heart was so high up in my throat that I couldn't breathe.
"ENOUGH!" Steve said as he came into the room. I gasped for air, but didn't get any. After a while, everything went dark and the last thing I could feel was a hand around my waist.

I knoooow, this is bad. But I'm trying and I hope the next few chapters will be better. I'm also writing a new story so please check it out! It's also romanogers, of course! ;) Take care!