Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great

I'm Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great. {11}

“You don’t understand. No one does,” he whispered coldly. “So tell me,” I said gently. He got up and made towards the door. “Ben wait!” I cried and stood up. “Come back! Please!”

He turned to face me. “What do you want from me? Well?” I placed my hands on my stomach again. “I want you to help me,” I whispered. “That’s what I want.”

“How the hell am I supposed to help you? I can’t even help my own sister! I can’t help myself! How do you think I can help you?” he exploded. He took a few deep breaths. “Never mind. Jeydyn and I are leaving.”
“Ben you can’t!” I said desperately. “Why the hell not?” he snapped. “Because you’ll get hurt!” I felt tears coming to my eyes. His mom’s boyfriend was going to rape him if he went back. “I can protect her,” he hissed. “I can’t help her. But I can protect her.”

He slammed my bedroom door and I ran to it. He came out holding his trembling sister and glared at me. “I always wondered what I did wrong to lose love. Our baby won’t have to endure that. It’ll know its father never wanted it in the first place,” he said coldly before leaving my house.

I stood there, stunned. How the hell could Ben say that? “Who abuses him at home?” mom asked softly, coming upstairs and wrapping her arms around me. She led me towards my bedroom.

“His mom. And her boyfriend was going to rape him,” I whispered. “That’s why I invited them to stay here. They’re not safe mom. His mom’s boyfriend whipped him with a belt! We have to do something!”
Mom looked at me sadly. “He must have a reason for not wanting anyone to know. Talk to him before you do anything.” “I can’t talk to him! He doesn’t want to talk. He doesn’t want a baby. I’m going to be a single teenage parent.” Tears dripped down my face as mom tightly held me.

“He’ll come to his senses,” she whispered and kissed my forehead. But I knew it was an empty promise. Ben didn’t want to help me so he wouldn’t. He liked to sleep around and be with different girls. He didn’t know how to stay with the same girl for so long.

But I couldn’t let him go.

***Ben’s POV***

I gave Jeydyn to our neighbors. They were a kind elderly couple who absolutely adored Jeydyn and I. I helped them out a lot. I cleaned their house, mowed their lawn, shoveled the driveway and roof in the winter, cleaned their car, got the mail for them, helped them move furniture around, and ran errands for them. They gladly took Jeydyn anytime I needed them to. They knew what our mom did to us.

I texted Jenny and made my way over to her house. She let me in when I got there and smiled at me. “Hey Ben,” she said seductively. She was home alone.

I smirked. “Hey Jenny.” I pressed my lips to hers and she led me up to her room. We sat on her bed and she kissed me deeply. “What’s wrong baby? You look like something’s bothering you.” I shrugged. “Nothing. Just…pointless shit I guess.”

She continued to kiss me and soon we were making out. Ali was right. I knew it. The sex, the drugs, the alcohol…it was all just a distraction from pain. The cutting. The cutting was the biggest distraction.

We helped each other undress and I gladly slid myself into her. I needed this right now. I needed a distraction from reality. I wasn’t ready to be a father. I was only 15! Alright, maybe sex got me into this and now I was using it to try to distract myself from it.

Not too smart.

Still.

“Benjamin,” Jenny moaned. I knew what I was doing was wrong but I just didn’t care. Ali didn’t need me.

Did she?

I had to figure out what to do.