Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great

I'm Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great. {34}

I groaned as the twins began to cry. I forced myself out of bed and sleepily made my way towards their room. It had been 2 months since the boys had been born. I stayed at Ben’s house most of the time. It was easier to keep the twins there for his grandma.

Ben…where was he? I sighed. I opened the door to the boys’ bedroom and guilt exploded in me. There was Ben. Poor guy was literally passed out on the floor. He was snoring softly, curled up. I felt awful. Ben had been taking care of the twins so that I could sleep. Keeping up with two babies and two jobs was terribly hard on him.

He had never complained though. He hadn’t moaned or groaned. He hadn’t slept in almost 3 days. After years of living with his mother, Ben was an extremely light sleeper. He must be extremely tired to be sleeping through two crying babies.

I made my way over to Shane’s crib. Shane was a good boy. If it weren’t for Shawn, Shane would probably sleep through most of the night. He only cried when there was a loud noise. Shawn crying seemed to scare him.

I carefully picked him up and gently rocked him. He quickly calmed down and I kissed his forehead before placing him back in his crib. His eyes slowly closed.

I picked Shawn up out of his cribs and had to rock him for about 10 minutes before he finally stopped crying. I gently put him back in his crib and turned to face Ben.

There was no way I could carry him back to his room and I didn’t want to wake him up. Actually, I highly doubt I could wake him up even if I wanted to.

Ben had gotten a job at Hot Topic and he also worked at Chris’s dad’s restaurant. He worked extremely hard and saved up as much money as possible. He also did chores around the house to earn a little extra cash every week from his dad.

I sighed before going down to the living room to watch TV. I would have Mr. Jarvis get Ben when he got home. Mr. Jarvis, Jeydyn, and Ben’s grandma had gone out to the mall today.

After a little while, the front door opened and they quietly walked in. Jeydyn looked at me and dropped her head. She was so good about being quiet. She rarely woke the twins. But I felt absolutely terrible for her.

Jeydyn had always been the center of Ben’s attention. She had been the only person he had loved her whole life. Now the twins were here and Ben rarely had time for her anymore. She took it hard. He never carried her around anymore. He was just too tired.

He never had time to play with her. Ben never did anything with Jeydyn anymore. I could see the jealousy and sadness in her eyes when he played with the twins while ignoring her. I knew it hurt him too. He didn’t want to forget about his sister. But he was a father now and he had priorities.

Jeydyn didn’t like me. I knew it. She blamed me for the fact that her brother ignored her. I blamed myself too. I really needed to give him a day off to bond with his sister more. She desperately needed him.

“Hi Ali,” Mr. Jarvis whispered. “Can you please got get your son JJ?” I asked, frowning. A look of worry exploded in his eyes. “Where is he? Is he okay?” I nodded. “He passed out in the twins’ room. Poor guy’s exhausted.” JJ sighed and ran a hand through his hair. “I’m really worried about him. He’s lost a lot of weight. That’s not good for him. He’s unhealthily skinny in the first place.”

I nodded, guilt slapping me in the face again.

JJ walked upstairs and I jumped up and followed him. I watched him as he got a sad look at the sight of his son. “Come on kiddo,” he said quietly. He placed his arms under Ben and carefully lifted him.

The lack of effort required to pick Ben up seemed to worry him even more. He carried Ben into his room and I pulled back the covers of Ben’s bed. JJ set Ben down on the bed and pulled the covers up to his shoulders. He brushed Ben’s hair away from his forehead and kissed him.

We left the room and quietly closed the door. “I’m so worried about him. Is he smoking again?” JJ asked. I shook my head. “No. He doesn’t have the time to smoke. Plus, he told me he doesn’t want to waste money on cigarettes or alcohol.”

It was sad. I almost wished Ben would buy himself a pack of cigarettes. I was terrified that all this stress would bring him back to his cutting addiction.

JJ shook his head. “I can’t believe you kids got yourself into this mess! You’re 15 years old god damn it!” he snapped. He angrily ran a hand through his hair. “You shouldn’t be taking care of 2 babies! You’re still just kids! It was so immature of both of you to have sex!”

I stared at him in shock. JJ never got mad. He never had outbursts like that. He was always understanding, no matter what it was.

“JJ…” I didn’t even know what to say. He glared. “How about you take care of the babies tomorrow? You haven’t done anything in days. Ben’s been doing all the work. When was the last time he even slept? 3 days ago? Give him a fucking day off before he has a stroke!”

He stormed off and I stared after him. He was right. I hadn’t done anything. I heard Shawn starting cry and Shane joined in a second later. I made my way to their room and had to comfort both of them until they stopped.

“What am I going to do with your father?” I asked Shane quietly as I rocked him.