Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great

I'm Pregnant With The Emo Bad Boy's Baby...Great. {18}

He looked at me with a nervous expression. I squeezed my eyes shut. He would go away. He wasn’t real. I was just imagining things. I was tired. That was all it was.

“Ben,” he whispered and I opened my eyes. A small smile appeared on his face as tears rose in his eyes. “Benny.” I shook my head wildly. This wasn’t happening. My dad wasn’t back. It had been 5 years. I had accepted that he wasn’t coming back.

He began to walk towards me. “Get away from me!” I cried. He froze and looked at me with a hurt expression. My fists clenched. He was real. He was really here.

“You fucking coward!” I growled at him. His eyes widened. “Benny, please listen to me! It isn’t what you think! I didn’t abandon you!” I pointed to the scar on my face. “Then what the hell do you call it when you leave your two helpless children? I almost died for you!”

Anger exploded throughout me. “You left your newborn daughter! You left your 10 year old son! You left them with that abusive bitch! You have no fucking idea what I’ve been through in the past 5 years because you weren’t there!” I was shouting the words that I had been holding in for 5 years.

I was breathing heavily, glaring in hate. Dad took a deep breath. “I know Benjamin. I know how hard it was. But I had to do it. I had to do it to make sure she wouldn’t get an abortion for either of you. I made a deal with her that if I could get enough money to take you and support you on my own, she wouldn’t abort you. I almost had the money when she got pregnant with Jeydyn. I had to leave to get a better job and make enough money to support both of you.”

I shook my head. “Why the hell wouldn’t you tell me? Do you know what it did to me? To think that both of my parents hated me. To think of how worthless I was. Unloved.” I was shaking. Dad shook his head desperately. “I couldn’t, Ben. You were too young to understand.”

I dropped my head. “Take Jeydyn. Support her,” I whispered. “Get her out of that house.” He gave me a confused look. “Ben, I did it for both of you. I’m taking both of you back.” “I can’t dad. I just can’t,” I whispered.

“Why not?” he demanded. “I did this all for you Benny! You and Jeydyn! God, I’d do anything for you two!” I sat down heavily. I had the chance to get away from my mom and go back with my dad. Live a happier life with my sister.

I wasn’t mad at my dad anymore. There was still anger, but most of it had drained out of me. He just wanted to help us. To protect us. I gulped.

“I got a girl pregnant, dad.”

His face paled and I dropped my eyes to the ground. My first time seeing my dad in 5 years and he’s already going to be disappointed in me.

I felt his arms around me. “Oh god this is all my fault,” he whispered. I didn’t move. “What do you mean?” I asked, emotionless. “I should have never left you. I should have taken you with me when I left. Please Ben, forgive me?”

I looked up at him. “Why didn’t you take me with you?” I whispered. He shook his head. “Ben, I only had enough money to just barely support you. If I had taken you, that meant Jeydyn was alone with your mother.”

Understanding slapped me in the face.

“Look Ben, if you come back to live with me, I can help you. I can help you and this girl. I have the money now and I have a very steady income at my job. I bought a house in a nice neighborhood in the town. You can stay at the same school with the same friends.”

Was this just a dream? It was like the answer to most of my problems was right here. I gulped. “Yea dad. Yea, I’ll come live with you.” He hugged me tightly, tears slowly crawling down his face.

After a few minutes of him silently hugging me, he sat next to me. “Shouldn’t you be at school?” he asked. I shrugged. “I ditched.” He bit his lip. I knew he didn’t want me to skip school. Dad was the whole reason I had managed to make it through elementary school. I was far too lazy to go to school every day.

He leaned back. “Tell me about this girl.”

So I did.

I found myself telling him everything. I was secretly glad I had him back and I was glad I could finally tell all of my thoughts to someone.

My voice began to catch in my throat. Dad noticed and he wrapped an arm around me and pulled me close. “I’m so sorry Benny,” he whispered. “I messed up your life. I could never forgive myself.”

I shook my head.

“I messed up my own life dad. I had sex with her. It was my choice.” I sighed and his grip on me tightened.He looked down at me with a small smile.

“Let me go meet her family.”