Ziall-One Shots

My Skin

Tumblr Prompt- Can you write a Ziall one shot based of the song 'My Skin' by Natalie Merchant, "I've been treated so wrong. I've been treated so long, as if I'm becoming untouchable". Angst, fluff, smut

Niall's Pov:

Abuse is a hard thing to overcome, Whether it's emotional, Physical, Verbal, Abuse hurts in more ways then people can understand. It leaves a dark mark on your life forever, A darkness that overclouds everything else. I sighed to myself as I looked at my reflection in the mirror, I hated my body just as much as I hate myself, My body's pale and boney, Faded bruises lay all over my skin, I looked down at my hands to see scars all over my wrists, How can somebody make you hate yourself so much? I thought I needed him, I thought the abuse would stop but it didn't it only worsened until it became unbearable to hide, Tears rolled down my face as I remembered all the words he spoke, The ones that made me feel like he was an angel sent from above, And the others that made me quiver in fear. I hated people touching me, I hated having another hand upon mine, That was until he came along.

For a long time I felt untouchable, Like nobody could stop the strangle my heart was feeling, Nobody could take the silence away that was slowly killing me.I didn't feel like anybody could save me and make me believe in the beautiful things again, Darkness was all I could see and I thought there was no way of escaping, Nobody could love somebody who was damaged, Nobody could love someone like me. Zayn was the one who made me believe again. He made me feel beautiful and loved, He made me look at myself in a new way, Sure I still hated my reflection and all the burning memories on my skin, But I knew Zayn would never make me feel so low. 

"Niall you don't need to do this anymore, Your perfect in every single way, Why would you continue to hurt yourself like this?" Zayn exclaimed as he examined the cuts on my wrists, I lowered my head.

"I hate my body, I hate what was done to it, Every bruise, Kick, Every punch, The bruises that still won't fade makes me hate it even more" I whispered, Zayn sighed.

"Niall your perfect, Your so beautiful, He's never going to hurt you again because I won't let him, I hate what he did to you and the way he made you feel, If I could kiss away all the bruises I'd do it" Zayn said.

"If I could I'd break every mirror" I mumbled, Zayn shook his head.

"Even if you do that, I'd still be able to see your beautiful face" Zayn stated, I shook my head causing Zayn to sigh, He then stood up before holding out his hand. "Come with me" He said, I quickly took hold of his hand as he guided me to our bedroom, He then walked me up to the mirror and made me stand infront of it. "What do you see?" He asked.

"Me and you" I replied.

"Want to know what I see?" Zayn questioned, I nodded my head. "I see somebody who didn't deserve any pain, I see someone who dosen't realize how amazing and beautiful he is, Somebody who's fragile outside but on the inside he's strong, He just hasn't found his strength yet, You found the strength to love me Niall, After everything you went through you still found it inside you to let me in and let me love you, You trusted me not to hurt you or make you feel bad about yourself, And I'd never do it because to me your perfect, Everything about you is perfect, Your smile sends chills up and down my spine, The way you laugh makes me shiver with happiness, Your body is the most beautiful body I've ever seen, You are the most beautiful boy I've ever met Niall" Zayn stated, I smiled as his words sunk into my skin. Zayn's words were like a lullaby, A lullaby that I needed so desperately to hear, I slowly moved forward before gently connecting my lips with Zayn's, Every kiss is just like the first one, I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck as his arms lopped around my waist. 

"I love you" I whispered, Zayn smiled.

"I love you so much" He exclaimed.

Clothes were shed, Kisses were exchanged, Moans of passion echoed around us, Our tongues danced together as our bodies moved together, Sweat poured down our bodies, The room that was previously cold was now hot with heat radiating off our bodies, Sighs of happiness slipped from both our lips, Our hands locked as we felt our climaxes coming, We held on for as long as we could trying to savior each moment, Zayn kissed over all the marks on my skin as if healing it, I closed my eyes as Zayn hit my prostate dead on one last time before I reached my climax, A few minutes later Zayn reached his and we collapsed side by side gasping for air, Zayn pulled me close to him as I laid my head on his chest, I listened to the sound of his heart pounding like a steady beat from a drum.

"It's beating for you" Zayn whispered as he traced patterns onto my skin, I said nothing I only placed a kiss over his heart. "Your beautiful Niall every part of you, Please believe me" Zayn exclaimed.

"I believe you" I whispered.

"Say it Niall, Say your beautiful" Zayn stated.

"I'm beautiful" I replied, Zayn smiled.

"Now believe it" He said before pulling me into a passionate kiss again, I did believe it, And I still do to this very day, As long as I had Zayn there to remind me I no longer looked at my skin as though it didn't belong.