Ziall-One Shots

Keep Holding On

Heya guys so I've had this idea for a while and I've really wanted to write it so let me know what you think?

Niall's Pov:

Falling in love with no warning is just like a papercut, You don't see it coming, You never feel it when it's happening it slices so deep, Seems harmless at first but just like a papercut the pain gets worse, It's the same with love it starts of small and easy but as you go deeper into it the love becomes stronger. This is how I felt about my boyfriend Zayn, I never saw his love coming it took me by surprise with no warning, But as time went on my love for him grew deeper. I was happy, On top of the world nobody could bring me down or make me feel bad about our love. Zayn he makes me complete, For me a world without Zayn is a world I don't want to be in, If he's not in my life, Then life's not worth living. When you love a person you never really think of a world without them in, I know first hand experiencing a world without Zayn is something I never want to face. 

See Zayn he's a headstrong person, If he wants to do something nothing will stand in his way, He's determined to see something through, That's one of the many reasons why I love him, But a year ago my world crumbled, It crumbled when Zayn reveled to me he would be going away... He wanted to join the army, So he would be going away. It was two weeks after our second anniversary, We went for a walk into the forest, We then walked up a little mountain and Zayn reveled he was leaving...Not many people know how it feels to have someone you love speak those words, And I cant describe the way it feels, Because there are no words, It's like your whole body becomes numb, You don't want them to go because you fear for there safety. But deep down inside you know you have to let them go, They have to go and be who they want to be, And as much as it kills your insides you have to let them. So that's what I did, I put my feelings aside and thought of Zayn's, I want him to be happy and feel he's doing all he can, When you love a person you have to let them go, If they come back you know there yours, So I've let Zayn go, I've given my world away in hope that God will return him to me, My world is in his hands. 

Everyday waking up without the person you love, You feel empty, Like the world could be ending but it didn't matter, It didn't matter because there not by your side, My world became a dark empty place. I went into a deep stage of depression, All I could think of was Zayn, I was constantly watching the news listening to reports, Everytime more people were pronounced dead I just waited to hear his name.. When it never came I thanked the high heavens above. As each day passed Zayn came close to coming home, But to me it felt as though as each day passed he slipped further away from me. I craved his touch, I longed to hear his voice, I desperately needed to hear him say 'I'm ok, I love you'. Those three words of I love you, I needed to hear them, But I couldn't. 

I lay awake in bed of a night, Imagining that Zayn would walk through the door, Take me in his arms, And I'd fall asleep safe in his embrace. I was safe but I knew Zayn wasn't. I knew the risk. Every night I dreamt of the day he left. I remember everything, I remember what he was wearing, How he smelt, His last words to me. I've held them close to me afraid to let them go, As Zayn walked away a pang of hurt shot through me. I couldn't help but wonder if this would be the last goodbye. 

Seconds turned to minutes, Minutes turned to hours, Hours turned to days, Days turned into weeks, Weeks turned months, Everyday I felt further away from Zayn then ever. Harry, Lou and Liam tried to be there, They tried to reassure me that Zayn would be ok, He was tough, That our love would bring him back home. But words there easy for people to speak. It was easy for them to say love will find away back, But it wasn't there loved one fighting in a war. I never thought I could become so closed off, I feared to close my eyes incase I woke up to the news that Zayn was dead. All the days they were a struggle. 

Zayn had been gone for almost nine months, In woman terms that's a baby, It's a half a year, For my heart it's another stab, Somebody was stabbing me through the heart, Not caring for the pain, Not understanding the danger, They were just stabbing going deeper and deeper, With no second though, How could the world be so cruel, How could somebody take pleasure in knowing other people are hurting? The worlds an evil dark place.

"Niall..I'm coming home" Those words were sent from heaven. Those were the words I was craving to here. Zayn called me today to tell me he was coming home. I was so shocked, Tears escaped my eyes as I dropped to the floor, Silently thanking the gods above for letting him come home. The world in this moment suddenly became right, Happiness over took me. Zayn my Zayn was coming home, I looked up to the night sky that night, Remembering a quote Zayn always used to speak

'As constant as the stars above always know that you are loved, And that light shining in you will help your dreams come true', Well my dream has come true, I dreamt of Zayn coming home to me and now he was nothing could make this moment more special.

Nerves that's what I was experiencing at this very moment, I pictured this moment in my head everyday, I pictured us being reunited, No nerves, No fear, No nothing, But reality was completely different. I couldn't stand still it was like there was a thousands ants crawling all over my body, Goosebumps were erupting all over me, My heart was racing at the speed of light, Then my heart stopped beating all together, That's when I saw him, I saw my beautiful, Perfect Zayn. He was ok. A smile spread across my face while tears threatened to fall from my eyelids at any second. We locked eyes, Both of us staring deep into eachothers souls, Zayn dropped his bags before running straight towards me, Happiness began to erupt inside me like a volcano. I took off running towards him, The minute I was in reach of him I jumped on him Zayn caught me and spun me around as if I was a little baby, I held on tightly afraid that if I let go I would wake up and it would all be a dream. We embraced not caring about the people walking by us, Zayn slowly put me to my feet before our eyes met again, I raised my hand to stroke his cheek, Zayn leaned into my touch closing his eyes, He was perfect, Just like I remembered he hadn't changed, He needed a proper shave but that was it, He didn't have no cuts, No scratches no nothing, I smiled adoringly at him. I then wrapped my arms tightly around him.

"Never leave me again" I whispered. 

"I love you Niall" Was Zayn's reply, My world was whole again.

"I love you Zayn" I said we then kissed passionately letting eachother know neither of us was going anywhere, Zayn then knelt to the floor holding my hand, I inhaled a breath afraid to let it out.

"Niall being away from you has made me realize that I never want to be without you, Your the reason I live each day, And I never want to wake up without you by my side again, I want you to be mine and only mine for eternity, So Niall Horan will you marry me?" Zayn asked, Tears fell from my eyes uncontrollably.

"Yes" I cried out pulling Zayn to his feet, Nothing could make this moment more perfect.