I Want to be a Hero {KH Romance}

I Want to be a Hero (Chp. 24)

"How did you sleep?" Sora sits on the floor of the gummi ship opposite of me, joining me near the door while I put on my shoes. I don't let my eyes move up. I couldn't look at him, not after last night. Not after what I decided.

            "... I didn't." I quickly tie the last knot on my boot and stand up, ignoring another head rush and the black speckles that overcome my sight in response. Sora sighs behind me.

            "I'm... trying, Rea. You need to let me try."

            "I don't take orders from you." I find myself almost choking on those words. Fucking Maleficent.

            "Will you at least tell me whether or not you're okay?" I feel my knuckles crack, and just now notice how clenched my fists have become. I snap my head back to look at him, and I ALMOST feel sympathetic when I see the tiredness in his eyes.

            "I told you how I felt." My eyes sweep over to the door, where Donald and Goofy enter. "I'm not going to pretend I'm okay when I'm not. So you'll have to find some other way to overcome any guilt you have, because I'm going to continue to disappoint." I brush past everyone and slip out the door of the gummi ship, happy to finally get some fresh air. My eyes scan over the burnt village, the wreckage now seeming more and more like a deserted wasteland than before. Blair steps out beside me and her pink eyes come close to watering.

            “What…happened here?” I feel Sora step up behind us and refuse to turn to look at him.

            “Sometimes people are heartless without actually being a heartless.” I pull my headphones out of my pocket as I step down the metal stairs of the gummi ship. I wasn’t going to be very talkative today, and I’m not sure if it’s a good thing that I’m reverting back to the shell I used to be, but it’s the only way to hold myself together.

            “I wonder how everyone’s doing..” Goofy briefly breaks the silence before all of our attention is drawn to the edge of the town, where someone in a black cloak stands. Upon recognizing that we’ve spotted him, he takes off towards the mountains. As the rest of the group takes off, I scroll through my playlist until I settle on Dance floor Anthem by Good Charlotte, and soon take off after them. The heavy guitar covers the brief conversation I see Sora have with Mulan who soon chases after the organization member with us. We reach the summit and see the organization member continue to run away, just out of reach yet again.

            I see their lips moving, but I have no interest in pulling my headphones out of my ears. I was mad, I was bitter, and I was going to be unmoved. It was a bit odd that I was listening to this song, because despite the lyrics, I did want to be in love. The feelings I would get inside when I looked at Sora weren’t always bad, sometimes it even felt like I was getting a natural high just by having him look at me. I loved that, I love that just being near him can make me forget about my 99 problems. He’s so much more than a distraction to me, he’s my best friend. Rather, he was…

            “REA!” My ear shakes as my headphone is yanked from my ear and Blair screams into it.

            “Jesus Christ, can you just poke me next time? Shit…” I rub my ear and pull out my other headphone.

            “I tried that, you’re too busy being a space cadet.” I roll my eyes and tuck my headphone away. She sighs “We need to head to the Imperial City.” I nod, which probably wasn’t what she was expecting but she stops talking none the less. Blair grabs my arm and we go to catch up with the gang, but as we reach Sora, he stops in his tracks. Sora turns and faces Blair and I, but seems to be staring right past us.