I Want to be a Hero {KH Romance}

I Want to be a Hero (Chp. 32)

AN: I just want to remind you guys that this is in the KH Watty Awards, so a vote after you read would be SUPER appreciated <3 Love you!

-Devon

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"Rea, can you come to the cockpit for a moment?" Donald's voice comes over the newly installed Gummi ship speakers and I sigh, removing myself from Sora's arms in his bed, and stumbling to the door and down the hall.

"It's nearly 11 o'clock, that's way past my bedtime, what could possibly be so important?" I rub my eyes as Donald turns in the pilot's chair.

"Well, Ya see, we only thought it was important to call you out here because a world has reappeared on the map." I drop my hand.

"Oh?" I shrug. "Which is it?"

"... Shady Isle."

.....

"..what?" I step forward, feeling a bit dizzy as I reach the projection screen. Donald points to the upper left corner of the map, where one blurry world still remains, but one is uncovered.

"That world is registering as Shady Isle, where we first went to fight heartless and found you." I lean on the dash and try not to let my vision blur up. Was I going to cry?

"I guess that's a pretty good sign that we should head over there and see how things are." My arms numb a little bit and I can't quite put a finger on why I'm having such a horrible reaction to the news.. the news that...

"My home is.. back."

"What?" I turn and catch Sora in the cockpit's doorway. He approaches the front and stares at the screen, eyeing it over for a moment before looking back at me. I can't release any words from my mouth. "...That's .. great, Rea. Your world is okay." He puts his hands on both of my arms and I give a small nod. I can't breathe.

"We'll be traveling til the morning, so you two can head to bed, I just figured I'd let you take the information in now." Donald turns back around in his chair and I finally find it in me to step away from Sora and walk back down the hall to his room.

"Rea." I shake my head and wrap my arms around myself. I could not cry. "What's wrong? This should make you happy." Sora rubs my shoulder gently as I refuse to turn and face him.

"I don't know.. I just.." Oh god. That's it. "I just thought... that if it never came back, I could.. go back with you." His hands stop rubbing my shoulder. The silence stuns me, and I finally find myself crying.

"I wanted that, too." Sora drops his hands. "But it's so selfish." He sighs and sits on his bed. I wipe my eyes and remove some pajamas from the dresser.

"I could never tear Mikoto from home.. especially now knowing it's still there." I sniffle and give Sora a small smile. "It's okay... Let's just. Not think about this right now. Stay positive, for me, okay? I need it." Sora stares up at me for a moment before rising and giving me a soft kiss on the lips. I feel some worries melt and I run some fingers through my hair as Sora pulls away. "I'm going to go take a shower and calm down." He gives me a nod and I head to the bathroom, pajamas and ipod in hand.

I lean against the door and lock it, looking up at the ceiling as I had done many times before. "Fuck." I mumble, bringing an arm up to my eyes. I'm probably the most selfish person for just being okay with cutting out the entirety of my past for a guy, and not even considering for a moment how it would affect my sister. I'm probably an even shittier person for being upset that I can't do it even if I wanted to.

With a sigh, I'm up off the floor and plugging in my ipod to the ihome left in the bathroom. Jes Hudak's "Different Worlds" starts playing, just my luck. The hot water of the shower stings on my skin, but part of me wants the burning feeling to continue, punishment for my sadness over selfishness.