I Want to be a Hero {KH Romance}

I Want to be a Hero (Chp. 36)

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"Kairi!" Sora's footsteps away from me pound in my head, so loud I nearly collapse at the sound. "I finally found you.." His hands touch her skin, and his arms wrap around her. What was this feeling? My throat was burning. Heartburn? No, surely, I was going to puke.

"Sora?" My eyes are like a doe's as I stare at the two. The beautiful red-headed girl in his arms looks to me, then up to Sora again with a curious look.

"She's no one, don't worry about it." My chest constricts. His hand lifts her chin up to his level, and my vision blurs as his lips brush over hers lightly. I was going to puke, I could feel it. What was I doing here?

The sweat rolling down my forehead forces my eyes open with a gasp. A dream. Just a dream.

He was beside me still, sleeping peacefully and nesting his face in the loose strands of my hair. Now was not the time for nightmares, or for jealousy. Could I fall back asleep without another dream? I couldn't get my mind off of that scene. My skin crawls at the thought of Sora touching her.

She is not me.

My heart can't slow down, but my eyes close again in hopes of a sleep with no dreams.

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"Two Twilight Towns?" Sora stares at the screen, confused. "I guess that means trouble, let's head in then?" The rest of the group nods. I sit simply in the pilot's chair, hands folded in my lap and eyes stuck to the floor. My dreams haunt me like nothing else has ever before. When I close my eyes, all I can see is her reaching up for his kiss, pushing on her tiptoes like I have always done.

But she is not me, and she'll never be. Is that a good thing? I know that by now, I should have some sort of faith, but the more I think about it, what if everything changes once she's back in the picture?

She's new and she's beautiful, and Sora hasn't seen her in nearly 2 years. She could be a lot different than he remembers, what if he falls.. back to her?

"What's wrong?" Eyes open. Don't close them again, no matter what. You're not that tired, Rea.

"Just a little sleepy." She tore me from my sleep over and over again last night. I want to tell you, I want you to comfort me, but how many times can I keep throwing this issue at you until you get sick of me?

"Well, you should perk up soon, Rea! Today seems like it's gonna be a pretty big day!" He can see through me, but offers me that trademark smile anyways. "I'll go make you some tea, maybe that'll help. Why don't you go put your shoes on?" I give a small nod, rising from the chair and retrieving my boots from beside the door.

She doesn't, can't possibly, love him like I do. She can act like it, maybe, but she will never be the same. Maybe they've never fought, or cried together, or got angry together.. maybe that's an ideal 'perfect', but that's not what love is. Could she possibly make him feel as wanted as I do? Can she offer everything I can? Who does he see when he closes his eyes? Her, or me?

Because she is not me. Does that make a difference at all?

"Careful, it's hot." I don't remember reaching for the plastic coffee cup, or bringing it to my mouth, but the hot steam rising from the small hole nearly burns my lip.

"Right." I look down to my shoes. I guess I had tied them. I rise, following the entire gang out the door. Back in Twilight Town and still mucking over the same insecurities. Congrats, Rea, maybe you haven't really changed at all.

"Shouldn't we go to the place in the picture? That's why we're here, right?" Goofy pulls the photograph from his pocket and Sora gives a nod.

"I remember where that is, I think, let's go head over to that mansion, then!" Bricked roads, dirt paths, grassy slopes. There's pine needles scattered about the ground.