Soft Spot (Zayn Malik)

XXXI

XXXI: Over

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~Zayn's POV~

I didn't get it. Everything was becoming so perfect between us. I forgot all about that dare, why did Alizia suddenly bring it up? Why couldn't people let Arvina and I be?

I forced myself to get up from the bar stool, wiping dried out tears away. I shoved a beer bottle away from my face, making it drop on the floor and causing a loud thud. Liam, being overly sensitive about his properties, gave me a dirty look but he was soon distracted by Alizia's bickering about why she showed the video to everyone. Her reason? I could honestly care less about. She ruined my first serious relationship. She ruined Arvina and I.

I soothed my cheek, Jaimie's and Aeanne's punches finally bringing me back to reality. Those girls could punch quite hard for tiny people. I licked my bottom lip before making my way inside, swaying from side to side and almost tripping quite a few times due to the alcohol and anxiety that was rushing through my veins. If I go there, I'm going to have to say something. What do I even say? How do I even start? I'm sorry? No, at this point, apologies won't mean a thing. I hurt Arvina badly and god, I fucking hate myself for that.

I slid the door open, greeted by Arvina's inaudible sobs. I opened my mouth to say something, but she beat me to it as soon as she locked her eyes with mine. She studied me carefully, gulping a couple of times before finally letting go of both Jaimie and Aeanne and made her way to approach me.

"I'm sorry," was all that I could say and I immediately regretted it.

There was another stinging in my cheek and when I fluttered my eyes open - as if I've had them close this whole time - a red mark was plastered on my left cheek shaped as Arvina's hands. I grunted lowly, cupping the sore sheek before looking at her sadly. She shook her head, biting her lips and smirking bitterly.

"I deserved that slap more than anything and I know everything sucks right now." I sighed heavily, anxiously rummaging my hair. "Everything sucks and-"

"No, Zayn." She shook her head again and before I caught it, she wiped her tears away. "You know what sucks?" I shrugged like an idiot. "What sucks is that I trusted you, you lying piece of fucking shit. I opened up to you. I let you in, but you obviously could care less about that. All you ever cared about was yourself. You're a worthless, self-centered brat." A sob escape through her lips and all I wanted to do was to hold her, but when I tried to do so, she smacked my hand away and moved away from me. "Are you even aware of the damage that you've caused?"

"I didn't..- I.." I let out a heavy breath out, unsure of what to say anymore. She was right. All I cared about was myself, I never thought about how it would have affected her if she ever found out. It didn't matter to her right now whether I was actually serious about her or not.

"You what, Zayn? You didn't mean to? You're sorry?" She laughed sarcastically. "Bullshit."

"No!" I gushed out, absentmindedly reaching for her again. But of course, she backed away. "I'm sorry, okay? I'm so very sorry and I should've not agreed to do that. I fucked up. I know I did. I fucked up big fucking time and there might not be another chance for me to make things right, but-"

"Aw, cute. He thinks he's getting another chance." Jaimie laughed sarcastically, but her eyes locked mine with a serious glare.

"Jaimie." Arvina said underneath her breath before looking at me again and quickly looking away. "I'm just...I don't know, Zayn. How I feel about this? I don't know. But one thing is sure, it's that I'm done." The way she said it left a pang in my heart. Is she breaking up with me? Of course she is.