Her Beef 2: A Different Me

Chapter 5

Desire

I can't believe this nigga had the balls to ask me if I am sleeping with August, when he out here slinging dick like it's crack. He sitting here with steam coming out of his head like we not back in this situation again cause of him. I am trying so hard not to reach over and knock the shit out of this nigga. "Are you fucking him or not Desire!" He yelled.

"Really Aubrey! Really! You have the balls to ask me that of all people! I have never fucking thought about cheating on ya sorry lying no good cheating ass not once! Trust me I had a chance to sleep with August and I didn't cause I loved you so much I couldn't do you how you have been doing me since we have been together! I'm not the one on TMZ with other people or at shows with other people. You are the one going around fucking people like you not in a fucking relationship. Your cheating ass is the reason why our daughter isn't here!" I yelled back at him. I was so upset that I didn't realize that I was crying.

He just sat there with his little fucking attitude. I just let out a laugh. "I can't believe I'm going thru this shit with you again." I said. The limo pulled into the driveway and I just got out before the chauffer could open the door. I went into the house and straight up the steps with Aubrey right on my heels. "So you could've fucked that nigga right?" He asked inches from my face. "Aubrey back the fuck up." I said.

He pinned me against the wall. "When was you gonna fuck him?" He asked clearly pissed off to the max. "When I did that photo shoot in Jamaica for Maxima. August was there to do his music video and he came to my villa. I wanted to fuck him but I didn't. I didn't do cause I didn't want to hurt you." I said being completely honest. He punched a hole in the wall right next to my head. He just looked at me like he was disgusted and walked out of the room. He went down stairs and straight out of the door slamming it behind him.

I just slid down wall and cried. I can't believe he was mad about me almost fucking August when he actually had sex with Alyssa. I got up and took off my blood stained outfit and took a shower. The hot water running down my body totally relaxed me. I was thinking about everything that has happened to me since I have been dealing with Aubrey. Will he ever be able to commit? I got out of the shower and put on some boy shorts and a tank top. I had a couple shots of Hennessey, then went to bed listening to Tamar Braxton's Broken Record on repeat.

Aubrey

I had to get out of the house. I never put my hands on a woman before and I don't plan on starting to, but I came damn close to it tonight. I just kept seeing images of Desire and August fucking. I kept seeing her enjoying him and it was pissing me off. I was speeding down the highway going towards the city. I ended up in front of Alyssa's house. I turned the car off and just sat there. I felt fucking dum as hell. I been fucking around on Desire the whole time we been together and I'm pissed because she could have cheated.

Why the fuck am I here at Alyssa's? I started my car and headed back home. I needed to apologize to Desire for the way that I acted. She was the most loyal woman that I have ever had. She has never slept with anyone besides me. I need to stop sleeping around on her. She was everything that I wanted in a woman and I was ruining it with my playboy bullshit. She deserved so much better than what I was giving to her. I wanted her to be my wife someday so I need to start treating her as such.

Before I knew it I was pulling back in my driveway. I went into the house to hear music playing from upstairs. I know that when Desire is playing music she is really in her feelings. I went to the top of the steps and I stood there for a second just listening to the lyrics of the song she was listening to.

Could've sworn we were in love~ Thought I'd given you my all~ But I'm standing here all by myself~ Oh, once again I played the fool~ While you stood and watched me lose~ Cause I'm standing here all by myself - Tamar Braxton