Her Beef 2: A Different Me

Chapter 10

"I Discover I love her~I gotta get her back"~Chris Brown

Aubrey

I was riding around Toronto listening to Discover off of Chris Brown's new album Royalty. Now I can't stand that nigga but he does make good slow jams you could relate to. This song was just about how I was feeling right now. I needed to do what I had to so to get her back. Desire is the type of woman that makes you want to do better. I know that's hard to believe as much as I be fucking up.

I was just in my thoughts when I came to a stop light. I looked to my right and could have sworn I saw Alyssa going into a bistro that I liked. The light turned green so kept it moving. I really don't have the time to deal with Alyssa and anymore of bey drama.

I was pulling back into my mom's driveway. When I got in the house I heard my mom talking and laughing with someone. "Hey Mom who's here?" I asked rounding the corner only to stop dead in my tracks. Here she was sitting here with my mom looking so beautiful. Desire looked at me and smiled. She looked just as nervous as I feel right now.

Just looking at her beautiful face I was no longer mad about what happened I just wanted to hold her in my arms. I walked quickly across the room and she stood up I just hugged her tightly. She smelt so good and she felt so good in my arms. Everything about her being here just made me fall in love with her all over again.

"I had to come here and see if we could work things out. I needed to know if you still loved me." She said looking up at me. I just kissed her so deeply that it felt like time hand stopped. Did she really have to ask that? I broke to kiss to look her in the eye's. "I could never stop loving you Des even if I tried. You are my everything and I'm so sorry that I put you in that type of situation." I said just hugging her tightly again.

I pulled her towards the back door and we went and sat on the patio. I just wanted to talk to her without my mother hearing all the details even thou I know she knows already. Don't ask me how she knows but she just does.

" Baby just tell me why you slept with August? It's been driving me crazy to know that he has felt your tightness." I said trying to keep calm, but I felt my anger rising. She looked at me and the turned her gaze towards the pool. "I didn't plan on sleeping with him. It really did just happen. But I guess I did do it so that you could feel the way that I feel every time some girl feels the need to pop up and say they slept with you. It really hurts a lot Aubrey to know that the man you love is out sharing his body that is only post to be for you with other women." She said looking back at me.

"Alyssa just showed up at OVO Fest. We talked after and we just ended up in bed together. We kicked it the rest of that weekend and then I came back home not expecting to see her again." I said. "So if she never showed up in New York you would have just acted like you never slept with her?" She asked sounding a little bit annoyed.

I didn't answer right away because I didn't want to say the wrong thing and upset her. "Can I ask you a question?" She asked leaning her elbows on her knees. "Of course." I said a little nervous. "How many women are you sleeping with? Do I need to get tested?" She asked looking very upset. This is not what we are post to be doing. We shouldn't be having a conversation that would be upsetting to either of us.

"I'm not sleeping with anybody but you. When I slept with Alyssa I used protection. Did you use protection with August?" I asked seeing her demeanor change a little. She put her head down and I felt the anger rising to my chest. "No I didn't use protection with August." She said looking at me straight in the eye's. I stood up and walked away for a second because I felt like if I didn't the words that came out of my mouth would have been disrespectful.

I felt my jaw flexing as I sat back down. "So you let him fuck you raw? You could not only have something but you could be pregnant by him. Are you going to get tested?" I asked with my anger clearly present. "Actually I got tested and I'm not pregnant. My doctor should be calling me with my results tomorrow. On the other hand you said your not sleeping with anybody but Robyn texted me thinking it was you asking bout her daddy dick. So you still sticking to that only me story." She said to me sliding her phone to me.