Her Beef 2: A Different Me

Chapter 22

"We built sandcastles that washed away"~Beyonce

Desire

After I walked in the house from having my little talk with Aubrey I was hurt. I can't believe that he tried to say that I was unfaithful to him during our relationship. I never wanted the conversation to go where it did but I will not take back a word that I said. I can honestly say after this talk I am completely done with Aubrey Drake Graham. He just isn't ready for the type of relationship that I want. I damn sure wasn't about to sit around here and cry.

I changed my clothes and my hair and went out for a little bit. I was trying to get use to Toronto. I was still going to stay here even tho me and Aubrey aren't together. I was trying in this little boutique that sold baby stuff just picking up a few things that were neutral colored since I didn't know what I was having yet. I was looking at cute blankets when someone tapped me.

When I turned around there stood August. All I could do was smile and give him a big hug cause I was truly happy to see him. He held me in his arms so tight like I was the only thing that he need in this world. We when separated from the embrace he just looked at me like he had so much to say and to be honest I did to.

"How are you doing Desire?" He asked me. We sat down in some rocking chairs that were close by. "I am going thru a lot of different emotions. I'm trying o deal with the fact that my relationship is over and I'm going to be a single mother. I miss my brother Shad and I just met my younger brother. Yeah that's how I'm doing August how about you?" I said to him.

He just stared at me for a moment I guess trying to take in everything I had just said to him. "I'm Ok just missing you like crazy. Desire just know you don't have to deal with all that's going on alone cause I am here for you. I got your back no matter what." He said.

That right there just broke me and the tears came. August was just so sweet and understanding and he was really everything that I wanted in a man. He pulled me close and held me. He just let me cry and get it all out of my system. "Why does he keep doing this to me? Am I not pretty enough am I not loyal enough? What is wrong with me?" I cried out. August lifted my head up so that I was looking at him.

"Look there is nothing wrong with you. You are very beautiful hella sexy and very loyal. Some guys just like to have their cake and eat it too. He looking for something not understanding he already has everything he needs right at home. Don't ever doubt yourself because of someone else." He said kissing my forehead.

He was right. I wasn't the one with the issues Aubrey was. We just sat there and talked for hours which ended up with me following August back to his place. Him and Chris had rented a beautiful home that they were staying in while they were here. It actually wasn't to far from where I was staying with Carlos and Shakeya. Who by the way I had texted to let them know I was alright. The last thing I needed was for Carlos to send out hitmen to find me.

"It's beautiful here. What are you guys doing here in Toronto?" I asked him. "Chris is here to sign this new artist Lovely to his label and he asked me to come. So here we are. I wasn't going to come at first but now that I got to see you I'm glad I did." He said.

I smiled at him. "Me too." I said. I don't know if it was my hormones or the fact that I was going through some shit, but he was turning me on and I was horny as hell.

Desaundra

I finally had the baby and I was back in shape. I was also back to work. I was working from home but everything was flowing like I hadn't missed a beat. Things with Shad and I were great and we were just back to being happy. I was working in my home office when I heard the front door slam and Shad cursing to himself. I got up and went to the front room to see him at the bar pouring him a shot of Henny.