Her Beef 2: A Different Me

Chapter 9

"If only you knew~How much I do~Love you~You wouldn't be trippin bout my niggas~You wouldn't be trippin bout these bitches" ~Tank

Desire

He really walked out and I haven't heard from him. I been texting and calling him and I got no response. He just vanished on me like I mean nothing to him. August been calling me nonstop and I just been avoiding him. I can't believe he said those things to Aubrey. I can't lie the sex was amazing but I just can't be with him because my heart belongs to Aubrey.

I know its crazy to stay with a man that doesn't think twice about cheating on me but I can't deny that he still has my heart. Its killing me that he isn't responding to me. If I could go back and change that night I would have never agreed to have dinner with August. I would have just stayed home alone and watched chick flicks.

I was so caught up in the drama known as my life that I didn't even notice Shakeya was in my office. "Damn bitch you was in deep thought. I got some good news for you." Shakeya said. "Wus the news." I said sounding so down. "Well I talked to Chub and he said that Aubrey is in Toronto at his mom's house. He been there since that little altercation that happened with you him and August. I got you a flight for tomorrow night to go get your man back." She said putting the ticket on my desk. Now I know he so disgusted with me that he had to go all the way to Canada to get away.

I don't know if I want to go all the way to Canada to be rejected. He is making it clear that he really needs a break so I'm going to honor his wishes. I'm tired of chasing after Aubrey. "Girl I'm not going to run to Canada chasing after a man that has cheated on me a thousand times. I do it once and its the end of the world. No I'll pass on that Toronto trip." I said getting up from my desk staring out the window.

"So you just gonna let ya man stay in Toronto and possibly be fucking other bitches." Shakeya said giving me the side eye. I missed the shit out of Aubrey but I wasn't going to chase him down. "Exactly!" I said sitting down. If he needed to fuck around to feel better than God bless him.

Aubrey

I just been trying to get Desire off my mind. I wonder if she was thinking about me. I missed her like crazy but I just can't deal with knowing she slept with August. She was never post to share her body with anybody but me. "You Ok sweetie?" My mom asked from the door way. I shook my head yes. She just stared at me like she wanted to say something but decided not to. She just gave me a warm smile and went upstairs.

I went and sat at the piano and just played a little bit. Music always comforts me. I started singing an acoustic version of The Real Her. I let the sound of the piano take me to another place. I just stopped and picked up my phone and texted Desire.

To Desire: I can't get you off my mind
From Desire: I miss you

I wasn't expecting her to text me back let alone tell me that she missed me. I stared at my phone for awhile before I replied.

To Desire: You not with him
From Desire: Are you with Alyssa

I just laughed at her reply cause she is such a smart ass. No matter how mad I am she can always make me smile. I love her so much for that.

To Desire: Really
From Desire: You asked me a dum question so I asked you one
To Desire: I still love you
From Desire: I never stopped loving you