Can You Forgive?

I Miss You

                  

"Home sweet home" I proclaim as we walk up to my front door. Brad turned to face me and I tune to face him. Even though it was pitch black out, I could still see his perfect face in the shadows of the moon light. "Here we are" he smiled. We stood there in the cold winter air in silence. "Hey do you want to come in for a drink, I mean I know that it's like 2 in the morning but-" "Yeah I'd love to" He replied. "Erm OK then" I smiled as I unlocked the door and we walked in.

I got him a drink and we sat down on the sofa. "Thanks" he smiled. I replied with a smile. We sat in silence again. I don't know why but it feels like we hardly know each other anymore but actually I know everything about him. From his favourite colour, to his biggest insecurity, but right now we feel like strangers. "What are you thinking about" brad asked. "What" I are as I snapped out of my trance. "What are you thinking about? I know you was thinking about something" he stated. "Oh nothing, just general stuff" I smile awkwardly.

"So the big day is in 3 days, you excited" I ask. I really didn't want to talk about his wedding but we had to say something to make general conversation. "Erm yeah" his said softly as he looked down at the floor. "Well, I know I am not the most qualified in love and marriage but I thought that people are generally more excited about their weddings" I laughed. "Yeah yeah its juts, just" he stuttered. "Just what" I asked as I placed my and on his arm. His head shot up and we instantly made contact. "Just what brad" I repeated. "Never mind, look I best be going" I said quickly as he attempted to stand up but I dragged him back down. "Just what brad? What's going on?" I asked. He sighed. "I don't know, i just don't feel excited, in fact I am dreading.... I am such a bad person" he yelled in frustration. "Hey listen to me" I snapped. He looked at me once again. His perfect brown eyes, melting into my sole. "You are not a bad person, you are one of the best people I know" and I meant it all! "really, well what sort of person dumps their girlfriend for some girl that he had really ow know for about 3 week, who throws away 2 year worth of relationship, the best relationship he had ever been in and then goes on tour without even saying good bye and then to top it off, comes back and doesn't even tell the girl that he is engaged to the girl, huh? What sort of person does that?" he rants. Obviously he was talking about our relationship. Our perfect relationship. I mean don't get me wrong, we definably had are arguments and disagreements but in my eyes it was still perfect.

"Look brad, we're in the past now" that hurt to say. "But this is about now! What's going on?" I ask. Like I said, I know everything about him and I know that something is bothering him. "I don't know if I can do this" he spoke softly. "Brad you will just be having cold feet, its normal" I reassure him. "No no it's not, I think I am in love with someone else" WHAT! "Oh" was all that left my mouth. I really didn't want to ask but I couldn't help myself. "Who?" "You" and with that his lips connected with mine.

They were just as soft as before. He was passionate yet soft. His hand slid down to my waist and my found their way into his gorgeous brown hair. As much as I wanted to carry on, and believe me I did, I knew I couldn't. He wasn't mine anymore, he was engaged to another woman. It was wrong for us to go any further. I pulled my lips away and brad looked up at me. He started to lean in again but I put my hand on his chest to stop him. "No brad, this wrong" I spoke softly. "I miss you" he stared into my eyes. "And I miss you but this is wrong brad, you are with Chloe" I reply. "I still love you" he spoke as he tried to lean in again. "No brad, your only saying this because you've had something to drink, you're not thinking right" say as I push him away. We sat there in silence, I could feel his eyes trying to connect with me but I kept looking down. "I think you should go" I said, barley audible. "Ok" she spoke, sounding disappointed. He got up and way about to leave when he turned to face me again. "I know what I feel Lucy" and with that he closed the door behind him. OMG!