Can You Forgive?

I Just Can't

                  

"Thank you so much Lucy" Sophie smiled as I walked through the door to Starbucks. "Hey it's no problem, I was actually quite glad that you did" I smiled. "Why" she asked looking confused. "It doesn't matter" I shook my head as I grabbed my apron and began to serve.

Man a 6 hour shift soon goes by, NOT! I think that was possibly the longest shift I have ever done in my life and it was so boring. I tuned the open sign on the door to say that we were closed so that me and Sophie could start to pack away for the day. She started to count up the till while I stacked the chairs on the table. "Thank You so much for today, you were a missive help, I don't know what we would of done if you were busy" Sophie smiled. "Yeah it's no problem" I sighed. All day I couldn't get brad of my mind and he was still in there now. Everything I did, we was in my head. For example I made someone a white hot chocolate and it instantly reminded me of him because on our second date we went to a club but it was really boring so we walked home and we passed a Starbucks so he bought me and him on and we both had a white hot chocolate.

Once Sophie has counted up the till she help me with the chairs. I could see that she was staring at me but I just ignored her. "Done" I proclaimed as I put the last chair on the table. She was still staring at me. "What" I laughed. "Not that I am not grateful that you came in today because I really am but you have been zoned out all day and really quiet so what's wrong?" she started at me with raised eyebrows. "Nothing I promise" I smiled. "Lucy this is me, what's wrong?" I loved Sophie she was like a big sister to me. She really helped me through the brad break up because I had no one else to go to. She was my rock. She stayed up with me the night he broke up with me, while I cried. She told me that he wasn't worth my tears.

"So come on then, what has he done now?" she asked. "How do you know it is to do with brad?" I asked, trying to be clever. "Because you have that look in your eye" she smiled. "So come on, what has he done?" I told her about everything. I told her how we had started to become a lot closer, how we fell asleep in each other's arms, how I called him 'Braddy boy' and he liked hearing it, how when I sung the song, we never lost eye contact, how on his stag do he walked me home and how he kissed me and told me that he missed me. Everything. "So what did that kiss mean to you, how do you feel?" she asked and she put her hand on mine and squeezed it. "I still love him, when he kissed me, all of the old feeling came back" I looked down at the ground. "Listen to me" she spoke. "Lucy..." I looked up at her. "If he still means so much to you, you need to tell him!" "I can't he is marrying Chloe tomorrow, he won't care! And even if I did, I know I would just be making a complete fool of myself because I know that he doesn't feel the same. I don't even think I should go to the wedding tomorrow" I sighed. "Why not?" she asked "Because Chloe clearly doesn't want me there and....." I paused. "And how can I watch the guy I love get married to some girl who basically replaced me. I can't do it. I just can't" I felt a tear roll down my cheek. "Oh babe" Sophie hugged me tight.

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Hey guys, so am really sorry that these past few chapters have been really short and rubbish. To be honest, I have kind of get bored of this story but I really want to finish it for you. So I will try and get my motivation back for it. Could you please comment to tell me what you think and how I can improve and like if you think its not complete crap.

from Lucy xx