He Only Comes Once (Doctor Who FanFiction)

26. Lost

26. Lost

Just laying there on my bed was the first time I felt comfort and safety in a long time. I couldn't fall asleep after I saw that vision. It was so realistic and true. The emotion in it was true, but there was no way that could happen. I don't know, again with all the confusion.

The green glowing clock on the wall read midnight, the TARDIS version of midnight at least. I could not sleep no matter how hard I tried, but the Doctor was wiped out. He was still sitting on the side of my bed. For once he looked peaceful and happy. Nothing was to trouble his mind. Everything troubled my mind instead.

I sat up as slowly and  secretly as I could. I knew the worry of a Time Lord and didn't want to wake the Doctor up from his peace. Luckily I was able to shift my weight without disturbing him. He looked as though he was going to fall. The only thing I could do was just hope he didn't.

My feet finally reached the carpet on the floor. As I shifted my weight onto it, the floor started to creak. I walked forward until my hand touched the wall. While edging around the room, I finally found the door to the corridors. I looked back one more time to see the Doctor still sleeping in his upright position.

The door's hinges lightly creaked as I opened the door. The hallway was not very well lit, the TARDIS must have been sleeping. Everything about the machine was peaceful. I started to walk toward the console room, but the dim light made everything so much more complicated. The hallways were no longer passageways, they formed a never ending maze. The TARDIS voice that was usually in my head was gone. If I continued any further I could have been lost forever.

My worst fears were realized really quickly though, because when I turned around, the entire system of the hallways shifted. They just completely changed. I knew that my mind wasn't playing tricks on me, my memory was extremely accurate, just like any Time Lord. The TARDIS was doing this, she was getting me lost. She's a smart one, I'll give her that, but it feels like she can't think too logically sometimes.

'You know I can hear you.' The TARDIS spoke in my mind.

'Like always... Why are you doing this? What's the danger this time?' I spoke through my mind.

A flash of light came from nowhere and a hologram appeared right in front of me. The Doctor in his first, young form stood in front of me, his image flickered. "My interface. It's not really him. I only choose a person in the Universe that you can easily talk to."

"When did the Doctor install this?" I asked.

"He didn't, I did."

"No no no. Don't get me distracted. I see what you're doing. If I let my mind roam now, I'll never find the console room and will be stuck here forever. So my question still lingers: Why?" I spoke to the hologram of the man lost in time.

"You are stuck, lost. You can only linger through the Universe as the Weapon. Kindness will not be seen in you, no one will love you. I can't let you live like that."

"So locking me up in this endless maze is your magnificent decision."

"You don't understand. I've seen your future, your life. I didn't find anything that would bring you happiness. Never was a moment. Please understand me, I'm trying to protect you."

"Being stuck in your maze is not going to bring me any happiness either. This is my life, I don't care if there won't be anymore happiness. I still want to visit new places, meet new people. Well I guess being run off by new people. I want to feel sunshine on my face. I want to know that there is something to live for." I spoke as if I was begging for my life. Tears were starting to form in my eyes. "You are becoming worse than the Doctor. He's done this twice, I'm pretty sure you remember that."

"His cause was his, now I have my own." She spoke in such a calm voice that it was starting to infuriate me.

"Can you please think differently for once?!" I screamed at the hologram. I felt like slapping her so hard, I wanted the TARDIS to have a different conscience. Before I could even try anything, the hologram disappeared and the TARDIS left my head.

That was when realization hit me. I broke down on the floor. My mind was not secure. The fear that I have been dreading ever since I stepped inside a TARDIS came true. Everything, every bad memory, every downfall struck my mind all at once.

I wondered if the TARDIS did it, but it was all me...

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Sorry it's not much, but at least it's something. Right now the only reason I'm not updating as much is because I'm rereading this book so that I can remember stuff. So I'll ask, what mysteries have I not solved yet? I know there are many, I remember most of them. Just comment on stuffs I haven't revealed yet. It'll help me a lot. And funny Doctor Who rule pic on the side. Vote if you like. Comment on whatever. Till the next chapter. Bye :)