You Can't Choose Your Family ➸ Demi Lovato

{Chapter 35}

"Ma'am here are your seats, I hope you enjoy your flight," the air hostess showed us to our two rows of first class seats. Madison immediately got settled in one of the window seats.

"Dem sit here?" She patted the space beside her, speaking in a cute, baby like voice. Demi readily accepted and took her place next to Madison. I couldn't help the slight bit of jealously that stirred up inside me but I quashed it immediately. It was obvious Madison missed her sister a lot, I would miss Demi too if I were away from her for the length of time that she constantly is. It was only fair she got to spend time with her. And five hours on a flight isn't exactly a big deal, right?

"Window or aisle?" Wilmer asked sweetly, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Window if that's okay?" I replied politely, still not being fully comfortable with my sister's boyfriend. He was still kind of a stranger.

Wilmer readily accepted my choice of seat and I made myself comfortable. Given the choice I could sit by an aeroplane window for days on end. Seeing the endless spread of fluffy white marshmallows, most commonly known as clouds, is so liberating. You are literally on top of the world and that knowledge gives me a sense of control over myself, something I was lacking of before living with Demi.

On that flight from Albuquerque to Los Angeles only a few mere weeks ago I had felt so lost and I had no sense of self control. I had no clue what the future would hold for me, I would be lost in an unknown environment with a relative I didn't know so well. As well as being physically lost, I was lost inside myself. I still am to some extent but I'm improving little by little under Demi's nurture.

The lost I still felt noticeably lessened as the plane soared through the clouds. It was early morning and the sun was still rising causing beautiful pink and orange hues. The view was breathtaking. The natural beauty of the world we live in brings everything under perspective. Life is beautiful. Just like this incredible sunrise, we should appreciate it and treasure it.

I quickly snapped a shot of the moment. When I felt at lost again I would look at this and remember; life is a gift.

I collapsed into the comfortable hotel bed, wishing I could just sink into it's mattress.

We'd arrived in New York at around midday, to have our bags taken directly to the hotel and for us to go straight into the day's agenda.

First, we went for lunch in a fancy Italian restaurant. Everyone bar Wilmer ordered a salad of some kind. The eating part was pretty easy, the salad I chose was very low calorie which put my mind at rest.

Demi, Madison and Wilmer engaged in reminiscing about some time they've come to New York before. I couldn't really join in the conversation so I turned to my phone.

I texted Joel who I hadn't heard from properly since he'd left Demi's house the other day.

Me: hey, I miss you ;(

I sent, not thinking of anything else worth saying but wanting to start a conversation seeing as I was left out of the other's.

Joel 💓: guess you haven't been on Instagram recently?

What? I looked at my phone, confused. What the hell did he mean by that?

Me: I don't use it often, why?

I quickly replied.

Joel 💓: look.

A feeling of nervousness spread throughout my body. Something about his directness of his words told me something was off.