Following Her Heart (CURRENTLY EDITING)

Chapter 13

I KNEW WHAT I HAD TO DO. I would have to tell Amanda that if she wanted us to stay as friends, our relationship would have to change. I realized how much I had comprised of my Christian faith and beliefs just to be her friend and to be popular. What a Christian girl I had been!
What had happened to who I was?!
I had ignored my family, my new and old friends, had been irresponsible with my schoolwork and homework, and worst of all, had not cared about missing youth group, putting personal prayer on a halt, and caring about anything related to me being a Christian.
Would God forgive me for how selfish I have been? I thought with tear-filled eyes.
Later I called Amanda.
"Hello Amanda."
"Hey, what's up? And where were you at Jenny's party last night?" she asked sounding annnoyed.
I breathed in and out. Should I break all this to her slowly, or all at once?
"I went to youth group." I calmly said, not at all calm inside.
WHAT?! Her voice exploded at me.
"Amanda, look. I am done forgetting that I am a Christian. That I don't care about the person I was, and my friends from before. Forgetting everything before that made me me."
There was silence on the other end.
Oh, God, please help her understand.
"I get it. So you don't want to be friends anymore?"
"No, just who I am will not change, just because I am friends with you. And I know you don't like my friends. But you will have to accept them from now on, because they are my friends."
I could just see Amanda. Breathing in and out, getting extremely angry as her emotions built inside her. I had saw her anger before, and it was scary.
"Fine. Talk to you later, Hannah" she said with a weird edge to her voice.
I hung up the phone and hoped Amanda understood my reasons for deciding to change, or rather,
become the person I was before, at least.
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On Monday, I saw Ana at the bus stop. Luckily, we were both earlier there before the bus came, so I could apologize to Ana and talk everything out with her. I couldnt believe it, but Ana was so happy I was going to be her best friend again perhaps. Shr told me she forgave me and gave me a big hug. But then the bad news came.
In the time I was being so selfish,
Ana had been being bullied.
I felt wretched and terrible. While I was being selfish, finding my independence, Ana had been being secretly bullied. But Ana assured me it was really okay.
"Who has been doing it? Do you know?" I croaked.
"Not particurarly. Just every mean note or text I have gotten was signed with the initials, or what I take them to be, the initials A and H."
My heart stopped.
A for Amanda. H for Hart. My so called new bestie had been bullying Ana, Amanda Hart.
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A tiny cliffhanger for you right now! Let me know what you think of this chapter, and speculate what you think will happen if you want ;)