Can't Sleep... Love? (Mavi)

Night Twenty-Four

Dublin, Ireland. The last show of our tour. Finally. Don't get me wrong, I love touring, I love it so much. But we've been away from home for almost a month now and the situation I'm in with Avi is straining even more. We try our best to be professional around each other, but it doesn't feel right, being so close and yet distant.

Nevertheless we give a kick-ass performance for our fans, because they deserve it. But rather than going out to celebrate I decide to go back to the hotel to have some time to myself. I tell everyone that I'm tired and just want to sleep, but when I look at Scott, I notice that he's seeing right through me.
Therefor he talks to me once we're in our hotel room and he's about to get ready to go out.

"Mitch? Shall I come with you? I don't mind, if you need me to be there" he says, eyeing me probingly.

I sigh. "No... I just want to be alone, maybe drink a glass of wine or two and read or something."

Scott smiles at me encouragingly. "Okay, Mitchy. Keep your head up high. And if you need someone to talk to just text me, alright?" He pecks my forehead softly.

"Thank you, Scott. I'm glad to have you!" I flash him a genuine smile. "Now get ready and go celebrate! Don't let your lovesick friend hinder you!"

He just grins and shakes his head. "You'll work it out, Mitch, I know it."

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Two hours into the night I am beyond annoyed of myself, because I didn't go out with the rest of the team. I can't sleep, there's nothing interesting on the TV and I can't concentrate on my book. I sigh and take my phone. I think about texting Scott but I don't want to disturb his fun. He's been there for me during the last days, always by my side, always doing his best to make me feel better. I look at the clock and quickly do the math before texting.

Me: Hey...

I don't have to wait long for an answer.

Alex: What's wrong Mitchy? Is Scott okay?

So cute how he's so caring about Scott although they're on different continents. To me they simply are the epitomy of a functioning relationship. Something that I would want... with Avi.

Me: Scott is alright, probably. He's out with the other's celebrating the end of the tour.

Alex: What about you? Didn't feel like going out?

Me: Not really...

Alex: Is it because of Avi?

Me:Yeah, I can't be around him, knowing that we are not good. It hurts.

Alex: Wait a second, I'll call you.

That he does, in fact he facetimes me, his bright, yet concerned smile showing on my screen when I accept the call.

"Talk, Little One!"

I just shrug my shoulders and bite my lip. "I don't know..."

"But I know. Scott has told me quite a bit. Waiting to be back in LA is hard, isn't it?

"Yeah, it is. I really want to know if we're going to make it. I am so scared that, in the end, it won't work out. Not after all we've had, not after the happiness, the love, everything."

"You know, Mitchy, I think that Avi is scared, too. But in a different way. He is scared of what Esther will think about him."

I nod. He has a point there, surely. "But how can I show him that his fear is irrelevant? Because this is about us, about what we feel and about what we want, not about what his sister thinks. I know that our relatioship won't be easy on everyone and I have to admit that I am a little bit worried about what may or may not happen. But I want to give it a try. I want... him!"