True Love Comes From More Than Just The Heart [Vic Fuentes]

Darling, you'll be okay

Jody's POV

My head felt like it's gonna explode in thousand pieces any moment. I wanted to turn around but then noticed an arm wrapped around my waist. I slowly turned my head and found a sleeping Vic lying next to me. Then I remembered everything. Yesterday I was drunk and went to Vic and then I slept with him. I slept with him. I slept with him. I.slept.with.him. Okay, maybe it doesn't sound this dramatic because he's actually my boyfriend but if you remember this difficult situation we're in right now, then it is dramatic! I cursed to myself that I did this. But then I started to really think about it. Why did I actually do this? It definitely wasn't the alcohol. I missed Vic like hell and I really needed him. Okay, "need" not in a sexual way but that's how it ended. Was I ready to start over again? I turned around in his arms and watched him sleep. I love him so much. I found myself smiling and brushing his hair out of his face. It seemed like this woke him up, because she stretched his arms and my heart nearly stopped. Shit, what was I supposed to do now? Or say? I just stayed and did what my heart told me. Instead of doing anything, I just stayed quiet and hoped to God that I didn’t wake him up. God seemed to hear me, because Vic buried his face in the pillow and drifted off to sleep again. Praise the Lord.

I carefully took Vic’s arm away and climbed out of the bunk. Everything was quiet in the bus and I again thanked God that everyone was still sleeping. I put my clothes on, which were spread around in the whole bus and fought my messy bed and sex hair. But I ended giving up and running out the bus because I heard a noise. I tried to make no loud noises when I closed the door behind me. As soon as the sun was hitting my face, I closed my eyes and tried to cover them with my hand. My head was seriously killing me! I don’t think that I’ll ever drink alcohol again (I did, at the same night actually). I started to walk to Of Mice & Men’s bus because that was still the only place where I could go. While walking, my thoughts found their way back to my mind.

It felt like I did the biggest mistake ever. Sleeping with Vic just wasn’t right. It felt amazing but it just made this whole thing more complicated. Me, being the stupid woman I was, just had to get drunk and sleep with Vic. Like ‘oh well, this thing is pretty complicated, let’s make it even more complicated’. Can’t I just crawl into a deep whole and stay in there until I die?

I reached Of Mice & Men’s bus and walked inside. To my surprise was everyone already awake and sitting in the front lounge.

“I’m the worst and most stupid piece of shit ever!” I practically yelled while I walked through the bus to the bunks. As soon as the band heard me, all of their heads shot open and they looked at me confused. I literally jumped in my bunk and buried my face in my pillow.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!” I kept saying over and over again.

“Uh, you okay?” Austin asked and stood in front of my bunk.

“No! Nothing’s okay! I’m just a fucking shit who can’t do anything else than make everything worse! Oh my God, I can’t believe it! I ran away from him! That was maybe the only chance I had to make it up and now I made it even worse! Please shoot me in the face right now!” I babbled and Austin seemed pretty confused.

“Uh, okay. What exactly happened?” he asked and put his elbows on the edge of my bunk.

“Yesterday I was really drunk and I went over to Vic and slept with him but then I left and now I’m cursing at myself for leaving because that was maybe my only chance to make it up with him, but no! Mrs. Josephine Smith had to ruin it again! Can I have an applause?” I don’t think that I ever used this much sarcasm again.

“Oh c’mon, I don’t think that this wasn’t your last chance to make it up. He loves you and would do everything to make you forgive him.”

“That’s the thing! I forgave him! But why did I run away, for fuck’s sake?!” I was still talking really loud because I just couldn’t calm down.