It's Okay (Gabriel Conte Fanfic)

Chapter 2

Lily's POV

"Cause this is a wasteland. My only retreat! With heaven above you there's hell over me!" My music sang.

"Lily!" Gabe yelled from the door.

"Come in." I said.

"Oh you're in the shower. I'm sorry."

"It's fine. There's a curtain so I'll be fine." I said reassuringly.

I poked my head out of the curtain and saw his messy bed hair.

Ugh his messy hair.

I did a quick sigh before returning back to reality.

"Have a good nap?" I asked before scrubbing the conditioner into my hair.

"Yupp. I bet my hair looks great huh?"

"Absolutely." I said smiling.

"When are you going to be out?" He asked.

"Soon. I still have to wash my body." I said rinsing out my hair.

I heard him sigh before I poked my head out the curtain again.

We made quick eye contact before I bit my lip and looked away.

"Well since you're going to be a while can I please have a kiss?" He asked.

I saw the smirk on his face and I knew he was up to something.

"Only a peck." I said.

He came up to me and pecked my lips before glaring at me jokingly.

"I knew what you were going to do." I said.

"You know me so well." He said before crashing his lips against mine.

It was awkward having just my head out of the shower but I didn't wanna show Gabe my body.

I know we're married and all now, but I'm just nervous to show him my body.

We were dating for 2 and a half years before Gabe proposed and we still haven't done anything. I mean yeah we've done like other sexual related things but not like actual stuff.

It's because of what Derek did to you in that storage unit.

Gabe broke the kiss before walking out of the bathroom leaving me alone. Then all I could think about was that day in the storage unit.

Then all the memories of everything I did came flooding back. I looked down at my arms and saw all the scars.

I then remembered the day I jumped off that ledge at the park.

Fuck what's going on with me? I haven't thought about this stuff for almost a year.

I then saw razor that I shave with.

Do it.

My breathing hitched as I thought of it.

I quickly turned off the shower, grabbed a towel, wrapped it around my body, and walked out of the bathroom.

"You're out earlier than I thought." Gabe said from the bed.

"The water got cold." I lied.

"You okay." He asked coming up to me.

He set his hands on my hips and pulled me closer to him.

"Yeah." I said smiling.

I held the towel a little bit tighter around my body before feeling a pair of lips on mine.

I so badly wanted to wrap my arms around his neck and pull him in for a deeper kiss, but if I did my towel would fall and I can't have that happen.

"I need to get ready for bed."

"But I just took a nap." Gabe said.

"Your fault." I said bopping him on the nose and grabbing my bra and underwear.

While I was getting ready for bed, I stared thinking.

Does Gabe want to go further into the relationship? I mean we have been together for almost three years.

Does he want to take a step further?

Gabe doesn't want to do anything with an emo depressed girl.

I lightly gasped at what had just happened.

I shook my head and then got into bed next to Gabe and fell asleep.

I literally wrote whatever came to mind while writing this chapter. I feel horrible. I promise to make better chapters. Keep voting and commenting! Love ya😘