LIVING WITH MY BEST FRIEND-[c.h.]

chapter 47 (the one with all the tears)

I wake up and check the time . it's 12 pm. i slowly drag my feet to the bathroom and get ready. I put on a pair of light shorts and tuck in the front part of Calum's nirvana shirt.

i take my phone and open the door .
"Calum?" i say with my voice barely audible. He's sitting on the floor leaning on the wall with his head buried in his knees.
He snaps his head up as he hears my voice.
tears are still peeking at the corner of his red puffy eyes.

"Kayla" he breaths out, stands up and tightly wraps his arms around me. "Go away" i push him but insted i was the one being pushed against the wall.  "Listen please let me explain" he begs.

"Were you here the whole night?" i raise my eyebrows "yes" he looks down. I kinda feel bad.

"I know this is about Brook. but please hear me out. " he cries "i honestly don't want to talk to you Calum" i try to escape his tight grip "But-"

"No Calum. I gave you one last chance and you blew it. I'm sorry" his grip loosened and he started crying. I walk downstairs and i see my mom get out of my parents' bedroom in her pajamas. "Good morning honey." she smiles rubbing her eyes. "hey" i wave "Where's Calum?" she takes out an orange juice out of the fridge. "up" i say rolling my eyes.

"okay...where are you going?" she says in confusion as she sees me putting my vans on. "To Luke's " i shrug and she nods.

I make those 5 steps it takes to come from our house to his and knock on the door. "Oh good morning Kayla" Liz smiles and lets me in "Good morning" i give her a quick hug "Luke's upstairs go wake him up" we both laugh and i run up the stairs opening Luke's bedroom door.

I slowly close it and quietly walk up to his bed. He's laying on his stomach with his hands under his head. Do all guys sleep like this ? i smile and ruffle his hair. he groans and turns his head away

"Luke" i chuckle "It's me wake up" i pull the sheets off of him.  "Kayla?" he turns his head back around and sits up immediately as he sees me sitting next to him.

"What are you doing here?" he gives me a hug. "I was bored at home" he nods . "Oh okay" he smiles at me. "Nice briefs" i chuckle looking at his burger underwear. "Thanks " he laughs and i sit next to him leaning on the wall.

"So how are you doing with all this Brook and Calum thing?" he says with a quieter tone. "well he's apologizing he even spent the whole night in front of my bedroom door. He tried to explain but i just don't think there's much to explain. He promised he's not gonna blow this last chance but he didn't keep his promise. I just can't be with someone who's gonna keep hurting me like this. You were right about him" 

i look down to my hands with a tear slipping down my cheek.

"Kayla i know what i said about him. But what i said wasn't true. I was just a jealous asshole. And now that we started hanging out he's honestly one of the best people i know. I know him and he would never hurt you. Please let him explain. I promise you it'll be worth it. Just listen to him okay?" he holds my hand while i cry even harder.

"Are you fucking serious Luke? " i snap at him "He cheated on me and then came back home like nothing happened. " my voice cracks.

"And he wasn't drunk either he was perfectly aware of his actions. " i drop my head and cry. "He really does love you Kayla. Please let him explain. " he wraps his arm around me.

"Since when are you on his side" i look at him "This isn't about whose side i'm on this is about doing the right thing like giving him a chance to explain. " he chuckles moving hair from my forehead.

"Well he obviously did a right thing by cheating on me so i guess i'll do the same thing by giving him another chance. That's the justice right there." i flick his head.

"I know what he did was wrong but once you let him explain it'll all make sense i promise." he chuckles. "fuck no" i sigh "oh come on he spent the whole night sitting in front of your bedroom door waiting for you to come out for crying out loud. " i look at him

"You should be supporting me and giving me good advice" he smiles "look i am giving you advice . Let him talk. Hear him out please. " he holds my hands. "I don't know" i shrug and stand up

" thank you for your shitty advice because honestly i feel soo much better now. " i say in full sarcasm " g'bye" i wave and walk downstairs. "oh come on" he laughs .

"You're leaving already?" Liz walks up to me "yeah " i nod "oh well it was nice seeing you. Tell your parents to come over later for lunch" she gives me a big hug "Okay" i giggle and walk out.

"You're home already?" my mom says putting her phone in her purse "nice to see you too mom." i sigh and she laughs.

"Where are you going?" i flop onto the couch "grocery shopping" she puts her shoes on. "oh that reminds me. Liz invited you for lunch"

"oh okay. Do you need anything from the store?" my stomach growls. "a bag of doritos sounds great. " i rub my stomach.

"okay se you later. bye" i wave and she leaves. I walk over to the kitchen and make myself some coffee as i was walking back to the couch where i plan to spend the rest of the day or even the rest of my life because life is shit, Calum walks down the stairs.

"Kayla can i please talk to you" i look at him and he's wearing one of my favorite outfits he owns . his usual black skinny jeans and a gray tank top which gave out a beautiful view of his perfectly sculpted body.

"Calum please." i lean on the counter and place my cup of coffee down. "I really want to explain" and i shake my head. "Calum i trusted you. "

i look him directly into his eyes. "Which is why i want to make it up to you" he got closer to me . "No calum i don't want to talk about it i just want some space right now because you hurt me like no one has ever before" my voice cracks and i drop my head with tears starting to form in my eyes.

Without a word he approaches me and pulls me in for a tight hug. I try hard to resist it but i give up right when my arms make their way around his neck. I guess i needed this hug more than anything. but that still doesn't change anything.

i cry hard on his shoulder . "I'm not giving up on you" he says with a shaky voice pressing me even closer against his body.

"Take your time. distance yourself from me if that's what it takes for you to finally listen to me"
i let a few more tears fall down on his shoulder. "I love you" he pulls away and i just look at the floor.

he puts his vans on and with tears in his eyes he walk out of the house.