LIVING WITH MY BEST FRIEND-[c.h.]

chapter 50 (the one where she tries to distract herself)

I flutter my eyes open not surely what to do today. Usually i would plant a soft kiss on Calum's cheek if he'd sleep next to me but i haven't done that in a while.

I feel emptiness in my chest but refuse to talk to him. I don't think i'll ever forgive him for that. No one has ever made me feel like him. Happiness, sadness, love and hate... i've been through all that with him.

But i have had enough . He can't just throw me away like a toy whenever he feels like it.
But then again maybe i'm the one who's to be blamed here. Maybe I'm not good enough that's why he always runs away from me. I snap my head up to stop myself from overthinking . i brush my teeth pull a gray sweater over my head , a pair of jeans and head downstairs to be greeted by my mom making coffee behind the counter as usual.

"Good morning sweetie How did you sleep?" she rubs my shoulder and sips onto a green cup. "it was fine" i smile. I sit on a chair next to her trying to collect my thoughts from the night before.

"What are you thinking about?" i snap back to reality. "Nothing in particular" i send her a soft smile taking an apple out of a bowl in front of me. "So you miss Calum huh?" as if she had just read my mind my eyes widen but hide my reaction by shaking my head.

"Mom it's been a day. " i chuckle almost chocking at the pressure i felt i my chest. "Oh come on you obviously had something going on between you two" she scoffs standing up and walking over to the kitchen sink. I try hard to battle my tears back but fail . "..fuck.." i mumble wiping the tears away.

"I'm going out" i grab my purse from the dresser and put my vans on. Not sure where i was going i take my mom's car keys and step out .

ON THE WAY TO THE MALL i stop myself from mumbling a song coming from the radio and clench my jaw at the taught of Calum.

Where did he actually move to? Or more importantly who with? My mind flies to Brook but shake my toughts away. He wouldn't do that right? He did say he loved me . I turn left and luckily find a place to park. I really do need new clothes and something to take my mind off Calum.

I buy new jeans , sweaters, tops and decide to grab some food. I stood in a long line of hungry people at McDonald's .

All of a sudden i hear a familiar voice shouting my name.