LIVING WITH MY BEST FRIEND-[c.h.]

chapter 4 (the one with all the doubts)

-1 MONTH LATER-

man how things have changed. for once in my life i felt happy and comfortable with myself. i'm dating Aaron for a month now and we are known as the cutest couple in our school.
everything is just perfect.

today aaron and i came straight to my house after school just so we can hang out a bit. he wasn't around for long because his cousins from england were visiting and he wanted to spend time with them since the last time he saw them was probably 5 years ago. he promised i'll get a chance to meet them all and i'm pretty exited .

today i'm feeling extra tired and lazy and my plans for today are my usual laying in bed with my best palls tv,laptop, phone and food .

i tapped onto the twitter app icon and got shocked by the number of mentions. the number of tweets is changing every second so for now there are over 100 of them. what could it be?
it's not my birthday....is it? -nah.
i check the tweets.
"i don't know what Aaron sees in her?like wtf he could do better than some slut he probably found on street."
"seriously tho how can he date her . ew"
"if she can get a boyfriend than so do i"
"i lovee your pictures ! your ugly face makes me feel better about myself :''D #FeelingPretty
"this has to be a joke right? he can't date her wtf?!!"

i didn't realize i was crying until i couldn't clearly see the words on the screen. everything was blurry now.
am i really that bad?? i stood up and looked myself in the mirror i suddenly didn't feel as confident and beautiful as i did couple of hours ago. i felt like i wasn't good enough. i turned around and lay on my bed wondering why IS Aaron actually wasting his time with me . he COULD do better than me .
my thoughts drifted away and i slowly fell asleep tears in my eyes and my pillow case.

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so very depressing and interesting parts are following :))x