Memories

starting fresh

Okka let me start on rc .

                     Me and him got a little closer
We would talk for at least 20 minutes every other day.

        Before we even started to talk again I had sent him a long message telling him my feelings and I even asked him in the message if he wanted to be my boyfriend .

After that message we started to talk for at least a week .
One day he just messaged me saying " my answer is yes ".

           When I saw that message I was like "yes what?"
And he was " yeah I do want to be your boyfriend "
After he said that I was kinda happy but nervous .

                             But guess what !!!
The next day he comes out to me and tells that he said yes because he felt panic and that he isn't ready to date .

I was like "okay I'm okay with that ,I need to concentrate on my TSI and stuff "
            
                  after I said it was okay he smiled with a sign of relief . I wasn't sad the he practically rejected me but I was annoyed that he can't take a decision and stick to it. Like he doesn't think twice and he just idk.

After the rc incident we stopped talking and till this date him and i haven't made contact.

                        Rc wasn't just a problem in 2015
My ex friend stopped being my friend in 9th grade . she just wasn't a good friend anymore we didn't talk and our friendship was kinda toxic it wasn't healthy .
             
               I had been thinking about how to officially end the friendship but I just didn't have the courage. But on January 1st 2016 I officially ended the unhealthy friendship that I had . after ending it I felt happier and I feel like I can finally move on and reinvent myself.