I read a chapter from this "book" that talks about my weight. While I was reading it, I started to remember how miserable I was, how angry I was at the world, how bitter and hopeless I felt at the time.
A friend gave me the idea to write myself a letter, now that I'm a different person, I'm older and just completely changed from when I was 16; writing a letter to myself would be so healing, and healthy for me. I'll start by saying that I'm just really proud of you Vanessa, honestly I am, and it's so cool to see you changing day by day. It is hard to change but it's not impossible. No matter what others expect from you or expect a change on their own terms... you have changed and will change on your own time.
You have taken such a huge step in your life, which was to sign up for the battalions. You were so so scared to accept the fact that you were being called, and that-that was what your were meant to do. You were so scared to leave your comfortable life and your bad habits behind, and sacrifice all of that to serve God and the servant of God. I remember how you looked for excuses and tried to find a way to not sign up but in reality there was nothing stopping you to sign up.
Now I see someone who has changed so much in appearance, morally and spiritually. If Vanessa from years and years ago would have seen the new you, she would be so shocked and happy. I'm proud, but there is still so much for you to improve on. It's gonna take time because change doesn't happen in one day. It happens in small steps, it happens gradually, and then you'll get to a point where you have completely abandoned whatever was holding you back from being your very best. People have different opinions about change, but you know what you need to do to change and how you'll approach change. You do you and trust in God. I think I got a bit of topic because I'm supposed to write a letter to my past self 😂
Getting back on track, Vanessa, you felt so sad and was angry at the world because you weren't what you wanted to be. Let me tell you that it will get much much better. A lot of things will happen along the way but it's gonna get so good, that you'll feel so ready to take on whatever life will throw you.
Whatever you thought as a mistake, don't regret it because it will undoubtedly have a purpose. Don't regret anything you do, accept them as a lesson for you to improve.
YOU ARE READING
Memories
Non-Fictionthis is a autobiography . I'm writing about my memories and what is currently happening to me .. i just want to share what I've been wanting to share with the people i care. its hard to say it in word .. ill just write it .
