I'm Having Her Baby (lesbian story)

Chapter 28: FINAL CHAPTER

“Go home Paige, you go home, and don’t you ever look back. What we had was good, it was wonderful while it lasted. But it’s gone now. So you go home Paige, you go home, and you forget about me. You forget every moment we shared, every kiss, hug, and touch ever exchanged.  You forget me, and you forget what you had with me. Because it’ll never happen again. So go home Paige, and forget everything. Because as far as I‘m concerned we never happened” I said with a calm face. 

Paige’s eyes watered, and tears started to run from her eyes. A mask of horror covered her face. 

“Lydia please”  Paige cried. 

“Lydia I love you. Do you hear me Lydia, I said I love you. You are my world. I want you back, and I promise I’ll never hurt you again. Please Lydia, just give us a chance” Paige said. 

“You had your chance, you blew it. Bye Paige” I said opening my front door. She really looked terrified now, and her eyes were the size of coke bottles.  She looked defeated, hurt, and scared. Paige looked at me horrified, then at the open door. She began to walk slowly out the door. I shut the door behind her, and let out a sigh. Whew, dodged that bullet. 

I sat on the floor, and faced Landon. He smiled at me. 

“Hey baby” I said rubbing his head. I picked him up, and hugged him. 

I kissed him on his cheek. 

“I love you Landon” I said. 

“Hey Lydia” Jenny said. Sadie followed behind her. 

“You ok” Sadie asked as they sat on the floor beside me. 

“For now, I’m just fine” I said. 

“You really let her go this time huh?” Sadie said. 

“I really did it this time”  I said. 

“Think you made the right decision” Jenny asked. 

“I’m hoping I did” I said. 

“It’ll be fine Lydia, it’ll all be fine” Sadie said hugging me. 

I could only hope I didn’t made a mistake. 

In the days after that  I was conflicted. I couldn’t really explain what I was feeling. It was like I loved Presley, and she’s amazing. I just felt something. Seeing Paige in such dire need. I never seen her like that. She was always so sure of herself, so in control, and just so confident  about everything. But when she came over, she was volatile, weak, in pain, and not sure of anything.  I felt bad for having to let her go. I mean she was in pain, her eyes, those golden amber eyes never been so distraught. I just wasn’t sure how to feel. One side of me is like yes Paige deserve all the pain she’s going through, because she broke your heart, and she deserves it. Then the other side is like Oh sweet baby Jesus, hold her, embrace her. She needs you. She was a great girlfriend. She made a mistake. Forgive her, take her back. And it was just a constant  battle within myself. 

Plus, I had Presley. We were doing good. So if I did choose to be like with Paige, I’d probably wind up hurting her, and that’s just not fair, because she’s really great woman, and I just can’t do that.  My confusion, confliction, and everything else was really bringing me down. 

Days went by, and it got somewhat easier to forget  about Paige but not really. Presley had noticed my distant stares, and how my mind always seemed  to be somewhere else. I was at her house, and we were drinking this delicious peach tea.  Landon laid beside me on the couch, fast asleep, covered by yellow Winnie the Pooh blanket.  Presley sat beside me, and touched my thigh lovingly. She held it, then squeezed.