Torn between 2 (A Brad Simpson/The Vamps fanfic)

I have loved you since we were 18

My eyes widened as I sat staring at that text. What did he mean by 'ask Tris'? Ask him what? My head began hurting from all these thoughts going round. I closed my eyes.

Before I knew it, we were already in London. I opened my eyes half open, half still asleep. Mum woke me up gently shaking me up.

'Wake up sleepy head, we're here' she smiled.

'Huh? Oh, okay' I dragged myself out of the car and went to reception to pick up my new keys. I then went back to the car to help mum and Tris with my bags and took them upstairs.

After a while I settled in and began unpacking a few things.

'So shall we go and get something to eat?' Mum suggested.

'Erm, no I'm not hungry'

'Are you okay, Jas?'

'Yeah I just feel a bit sick that's all, but you guys go ahead. I'm gonna take a nap'

'You just slept for 2 hours in the car' Tris laughed.

'Well the car isn't as comfy as my bed' I answered back.

'Ohhhhhhkay then, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed..'

'Look darling, about Brad..'

'I don't want to talk about it'

'But-'

'I said, I don't want to talk about it'

'Okay then. Well we should probably get going so we don't get back too late. Come here Jas' mum pulled me in for a hug which lasted at least 5 minutes.

'Mum I'll be home soon! Probably even next week' I laughed.

'I know but it will just be weird not having you around all the time'

'Please don't cry mum!'

'I'm not! I think the dust is just triggering my allergies'

'Okay mum, okay' I laughed and hugged her again.

'Right say goodbye to your sister then Tris, let's get going'

'Bye Jas, study hard!' He came and hugged me.

'I know it was you' I whispered in his ear before pulling away.

Tris looked confused. I didn't make eye contact with him, I couldn't even look at him anymore.

'Wh-' he started speaking.

'Don't' I mouthed.

'Everything alright with you two?' Mum asked.

'Yeah, ring me when you're home mum and drive safe'

'I will darling, I love you. Be careful! I'll ring you tonight'

'I will mum and okay, I love you too!'

'Love you Jas' Tris said quietly.

'Bye mum' I shouted as I waved her off, ignoring Tris.

*1 message to Brad*

'Ring me'

'Hello?'

'Erm, hey Jas'

'Don't sound so scared to speak to me on the phone Brad'

'I'm sorry, it's just been so long since we've had a phone call, it's weird'

'Oh..'

'But a good weird, of course'

'Oh!' I smiled to myself.

'So what's up?'

'What did you mean by, 'ask Tris', in your text?'

Brad sighed. 'Just, ask him'

'No, tell me. I need to know. I'm not talking to him, I can't even looking at him'

'But I thought you didn't know?'

'Know what?'

'Oh, I see what you're doing! Reverse psychology!'

I laughed. 'You know me so well'

'Well obviously'

'So, are you going to tell me what happened?'

'I don't know Jas, I used to give him a letter everyday to keep in your room for when you came back but clearly he didn't do that.. I have no idea what he did with them, I'm sorry'

'Why are you sorry?'

'I don't know, I just-I want to say sorry for everything , I was such an idiot back then and my actions caused me to lose not only my best friend but my partner in crime too'

I sighed. 'It wasn't entirely your fault Brad, I mean maybe I did overreact and I did make things worse by just leaving like that but I wasn't thinking straight back then. I was so hurt and lost and confused, I thought I was doing the right thing'

'Hey, don't blame yourself! Look, it's done now okay. We're here now, okay?'

'Yeah'

'Look Jas, I know you don't want to get back to how things were but can we agree to still be friends?'

'No, we're not friends'

'Wh-what?' His voice dropped.

'We're best friends silly!' I laughed.

'Oh my gosh don't do that me! You scared the life out of me!'

'Sorry' I sang, innocently.

'You know if you were here right now I'd be tickling you until you said sorry properly'

'Na-na-na you can't tickle me cause you're so far away' I teased.

'Yeah well just you wait'

'Okay Brad, whatever you say'

Hours went by and me and Brad were still on the phone. It was so nice talking to him like the old days, it felt good.

'So anyway, I'm gonna take a nap. I have the worst headache'

'Oh no! Rest well then, I don't want you being tired for your first week back at uni!'

'Thanks Brad' I chuckled.

'Text me when you wake up! Oh, erm, well if you want to..'

'Yeah, if you're lucky mate'

'Oh, I see how it is!'

'Jokes, course I'll text you. I've enjoyed this conversation Brad, thanks'

'I've enjoyed it too, and why thanks?'

'I don't know, thanks for just being you. Even though we been through loads in the last week and you're 3 hours away from me you still always know the right things to say to me to make me smile'

'I told you I know you better than anyone, probably even more than I know myself' he laughed. 'Anyway, I'll leave you to rest, sleep well! I lov- I mean, erm, bye Jas'

'I love you too Brad' I giggled.

He laughed back. 'I'll speak to you soon, I love you'

We hung up and I put my phone down on the side. I went to sleep smiling to myself. Everything felt so good, and right.