Torn between 2 (A Brad Simpson/The Vamps fanfic)

When you look me in the eyes

A few weeks had passed and I was buried in work already. I don't even know where the time has gone! I currently have 4 deadlines due before Christmas which I am not looking forward to, but at least I only have 1 exam in January when we come back after the holidays.

Me and Brad speak every day without fail, even if it's a quick hello. I still haven't spoken to Tris since they dropped me off after summer but he doesn't really ring or text me anymore so I think he knows what he did was wrong.

The boys were coming down to London to do some interviews and luckily I had the day off so I told Brad I'd spend time with him once they had finished.

*1 message from Brad*

'Hey Jas, just finished! Joe will come and pick you up in around 15 minutes so be ready! I can't wait to see you xxx'

*1 message to Brad*

'Hey B! That's fab, thanks! I can't wait to see you either xxx'

I walked into the kitchen with a big smile on my face, humming to myself while I watched my plates up. I don't know why I felt so nervous. I felt like I did that day Brad asked me out, when we went out for his mum's birthday. Wow, that was so long ago.

My phone rang, distracting me from my thoughts. It was Joe, he was outside already! I quickly text him saying I'm just going to grab my bag and coat and I'll be down in a minute.

'You alright Jas? Long time no see!' Joe gave me a quick hug as he greeted me downstairs.

'I know! How have you been? How's everything going?'

'Yeah I've been good cheers, you know what it's like working with these boys.. It's always fun and games' he laughed.

'That's true' I laughed back. 'You must be so proud that they are doing a world tour though!'

'Of course! They've done so well in such a short amount of time, I'm proud of them. Although don't let them know I said that' he laughed again.

'Don't worry I'm sure they know that anyway'

'So on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you to see Brad?'

'Erm, what?'

'Oh come on, you haven't stopped smiling since you got into the car! Are you two back together now or what?'

I blushed.

'I'll take that as a yes then' Joe winked at me.

'No! Nothing like that, Joe. We're just getting used to being back in each others lives again, a relationship is not happening anytime soon' I looked down.

'Because he doesn't want to or because you don't want to?'

'Wh-what do you mean?'

'Between me and you, the kid hasn't stopped talking about you even when you two weren't friends'

'Really?'

'I heard about the letter situation by the way, I gave Tris a massive grilling after I found out!'

'Oh yeah' I rolled my eyes. 'I haven't spoke to him since I found out, I'm not looking forward to seeing him today'

'Oh, no, don't worry, he left'

'Left?'

'Yeah I think he went with Fin somewhere. He knew you were coming so he didn't want any trouble'

'Oh' I looked down.

'Right! We're here!'

I looked up and we were at the back entrance of the itv studios. Joe said the boys were inside.

'Wow, I have butterflies in my stomach'

'You must be really nervous then' Joe laughed. 'Come on, you'll be fine!'

I walked with my head down, like Joe instructed me to do, and made my way inside. I lifted my head up and looked around, amazed. It looks nothing like it does on tv you know, it's a lot smaller. As I was scanning the set I saw 3 figures on the other side of the room. One turned around and made eye contact with me, I realised it was Brad, Connor and James. I ran up to them.

'I've missed you!' Brad said as he lifted me up and span me around.

'I've missed you too!' He put me down and we both just stared at each other.

Connor came over and distracted us.

'Hey you!' I hugged him.

'Hey!' He laughed. 'It's been so long! You look old'

'Oh, charming! Missed you too Condor' I laughed.

I turned around to see James. 'James!' I hugged him too.

'Hey Jas! How have you been? How's uni?!'

'All good here James!'

'Ahhh I've missed this!' Brad said, hugging us all together.

'Yeah and I've missed being able to breathe!' Connor shouted as he being squashed in the hug.

'Oh hey Jas, sorry about you know.. the whole Tristan thing' James said quietly.

'Oh, erm, yeah' I looked at Brad. 'It's alright'

'Right, let's go get some food, I'm starving!' Connor shouted.

...

It was reaching midnight and none of us realised the time! Joe dropped me back to uni with the boys as they were travelling back home after dropping me. Once we arrived I hugged Connor, James and Joe and said goodbye.

'Thanks for today guys, it was so good seeing you again!'

Brad offered to walk me back to my flat. We got back and stood in silence for a bit.

'So..'

'So.. Erm, goodnight then Jas'

'Erm, yeah, goodnight'

'It was so great seeing you today, it felt just like the old times'

'Yeah, it did' I smiled.

'I'll see you soon?'

'Of course! Have a safe drive home okay? And text me as soon as you're back!'

'Yes mum' he laughed.

'Shit' I said to myself. 'I didn't mean to say that, I just care about you'

'I know Jas, chill, it's not a bad thing!'

I blushed.

'So, I guess I should get going now then..'

*ding*

My phone went off. It was a text from Tom asking where I was.

'Oh it's just my friend asking where I am' I told Brad.

'You don't have to tell me who texts you, you know'

'Sorry, it's a habit..'

'Anyway, I'll let you get back to your friends so they know you're safe. Goodnight Jas' he hugged me tight.

'Goodnight Brad' I smiled and hugged him again. 'Thanks for today'

'Anytime' he kissed me on the cheek and left.

*1 message from Brad*

'I hope you don't feel like I'm stopping you from doing anything.. It's not like we're together so you can do what you want x'

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Hey guys,

So sorry I haven't updated in ages, I have writers block so that's why this chapter is so rubbish too :(