Torn between 2 (A Brad Simpson/The Vamps fanfic)

She's out of my life

It's been a couple of days now since I last spoke to Tom. I was beyond angry with him, how could he do something like that to me? I couldn't just wait around doing nothing, so I decided to ask him to meet up. He instantly replied saying yes.

'Hey Jas'

'Hey'

'Are you still mad at me?'

'Have you spoken to Brad?'

'Erm, no..'

'Great, I'll give him a ring now then!'

'W-'

Before he could say anything I was dialling Brad.

'What do you want?' He answered, bluntly.

I didn't even want to say anything. He's speaking to me like I'm a piece of dirt on the ground. I could feel my eyes begin to water so I passed the phone to Tom quickly. I put it on speaker.

'H-hello Brad'

'Oh you can piss off too!'

'Wait! Don't go!'

'Why would I want to hear what you have to say?'

'Just listen you idiot!' I snapped at him.

'So I kinda lied about me and Jas being together.. It's not true. I just said it to keep you away I guess, I don't know. But I'm sorry, I didn't know you'd end up hating Jas and seeing her like this is breaking me'

'Oh, wow, give a round of applause to Romeo over here!'

I grabbed the phone off Tom. 'Stop being such a little shit and listen to him! He's saying sorry for making it up and you should have known it wasn't true because I would have told you myself! So don't start accusing me saying you thought you meant more to me because you should know you mean the whole fucking world to me and don't you dare think otherwise. Now accept his apology and start remembering who I am okay, you should know damn well how I act and I'm so hurt you thought so little of me'

I hung up before giving him the chance to reply. I could feel the anger rushing through me. I ran off before Tom could say something too. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to go home and just hug my mum tight but I didn't want to be anywhere near Brad.

I rang the only other person I knew could cheer me up... Tristan. I rang until he answered but couldn't say anything, I didn't know what to say.

'Jas? Are you okay? What's wrong?!'

'Tris' I whispered.

'Jas are you alright? Say something!'

'I'm sorry Tris'

'Sorry? Sorry for what? What's happened?!'

'Tris I just need you here right now, I'm sorry for-' before I could finish my sentence he hung up and texted me.

'I'm on my way, be there in 2 hours don't move!!! X'

...

I waited until Tris got here and went to meet him downstairs. I ran up to him with tears running off my face in the wind. I jumped on him and hugged him so tight.

'Tris I'm so sorry for not speaking to you for all these months, I've missed you so much!'

'Hey don't be sorry! I'm the one who should be apologising! I'm sorry for keeping Brad's letters from you Jas, I thought I was doing the right thing.. You were starting a new chapter in your life, I didn't want anything to hold you back. I'm sorry Jas, I shouldn't have made that decision for you, I should have left it for you'

'It's okay Tris, I understand why you did it now. I'm sorry for blocking you out all this time. I'm just so lucky to have you looking out for me'

'Always! Now, are you going to tell me what's happened?'

I explained the whole Brad/Tom situation to him.

'Woah, I was right to drive all the way down here!'

'I know, I couldn't handle it by myself.. I needed you here'

'Well I'm not going anywhere, okay?'

'I know' I smiled and hugged him.

'I can't believe Brad would say all those things and especially not to you!'

'I know! That's why I'm so pissed off at him! He's changing Tris, he's not the Brad I used to know'

'Okay, I'm not taking sides here but.. Have you ever looked at it in a different way?'

'What do you mean?'

'Like, it seems like he's acting this way because he's still in love with you and can't bare to see you with someone else'

'Oh, well, I erm, I never thought of it like that..' I felt my cheeks getting warm. 'But still, it doesn't give him the right to talk to me the way he did!'

'I know Jas but look how you spoke to him too..'

'But I was angry!'

'I know that and so was he, right?'

'Well yeah but-'

'But what? You guys are still in love with each other, you probably never even fell out of love! You two have been through so much, you can't hate each other'

I kept quiet for a minute. 'I really hate when you're right, you know?'

'Well, what can I say' he pretended to do a hair flip.

'Alright calm down' I laughed.

'So what's the plan now then?'

'What do you mean?'

'Well aren't you going to tell him you still love him?'

'No! I'm not apologising first!'

'Oh. My. Goodness.'

'What?!'

'You two are literally still in primary school, I swear. Just man up and apologise!'

'No, he should be saying sorry after the way he treated me!'

'Oh! Speak of the devil.. Look who just text me'

'What did he say? Actually, I don't want to know. Okay, maybe I do.. A bit'

'Tris man, I've messed up big time. I've ruined things with Jas forever and I don't know how to fix it. I need you. I love her more than anything in the world and I've lost her cause of my stupid jealousy! I can't do this without her, I can't do anything without her. I've already been 3 years without speaking to her, I can't do the rest of my life. Please help :('