This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Your kisses vs my kisses

*Macky's POV*

School is finally over for the day and Shawn drove us to his house, well to the neighborhood he lived about ten minutes away walking. Shawn let us inside the house and I took off my shoes and leaving it on the rack "Is there Hot Pockets?" I shouted as I headed down to the refrigerator.

"Ya, my mom bought barbeque and pizza!" Shawn screamed back. I fist pumped the air and heated up two for us. I went on my phone and I could feel Shawn staring, I looked over and he stood next to me "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" My eyebrows knitted together confused. "Just answer it, I was having a lecture about it. Five years from now we'll be 20, what do you wanna see yourself doing?"

What do I wanna do five years from now? Ya I like music and stuff, but that doesn't happen to suburb kids. Gotta have one that could happen like hockey. I shrugged and the microwave beeped "I don't know, I don't wanna get my hopes up. Most likely do... photography or hockey, it's reasonable. I have colleges already looking at me for hockey."

We sat that the island and Shawn was quiet "Aaliyah is at her friend's house for a project until seven and my parents have a late shift tonight... Do you wanna start now or some other time?" I choked on my Hot Pocket and coughed. That definitely caught me off guard.

I looked at Shawn and he was holding his phone and looking at me. He handed me his water and patted my back. "I-I Uhmm, ya. Yes, let's start now" I mentally slapped myself in the face. Shawn smiled at me and we walked up to his room "So?"

"Okay, well first thing that happens is kissing. So, kiss me" Shawn said all casual, for me it was like he was speaking a foreign language. I stared at Shawn and bit the inside of my lip. Well here goes my life.

I walked over and leaned in as Shawn did the same, our lips met and moved together. My hands locked together at the back of his neck and he placed his on my waist. I pulled away and was in shock. Damn, he's good. I processed what we just did and Shawn looked at me "Uhmm, how was that?"

Shawn smiled widely and walked over, we were close together and his hands rested on my back. I suddenly felt nervous "Fucking good, but you forgot the tease or lead up. It could go two ways this is the first one." Shawn hovered above me and stared walking towards me causing me to walk backwards into the wall. My breathing became heavy and I was nervous as hell. His hand moved to my cheek and he kissed me, I moved my lips against him and Shawn moved the kisses down my jaw and to my neck. Holy shit.

I moved my neck to the side and Shawn hit the sweet stop "Shawn" I moaned letting out a deep breath. He sucked on the area and smiled at what he did. He moved back to my lips and his hands moved down to my butt and mine was just pulling on the roots of his hair.

Shawn moaned loudly and his head hung back. I took the opportunity and kissed his neck, leaving my own little gifts. "G-God damn, M-Macky" he stuttered. Shawn pulled me back to meet his lips and he squeezed my butt, I gasp and his tongue slipped into my mouth. Smart. We kissed for a couple of minutes and he pulled away, leaving us both breathless.

My arms lingered around his neck and his hands locked around my lower back. I licked my lips and sighed smiling "Wow." Shawn smiled and pecked my lips "I definitely see the difference."

He chuckled "Or this could happen" he lead me against the wall and crashed our lips together. Shawn sped up the process to the main point and he gripped my butt in his hands and massaged them as I moaned lightly. "Jump, I got you" I did what he said and wrapped my legs around his waist. We continued to kiss and pull at each other hormones.

Shawn gently laid me on the bed and used his elbow to support him. I pulled him closer and knocked his elbow out causing him to fall on me and deepen the kiss. My hands ran through his hair and Shawn's hand slipped under my shirt leaving a trail of goosebumps. His tongue glided across my bottom lips, I parted them giving him entrance. Shawn kissed my neck and went lower and leaving a mark on my left boob since I was wearing a v-neck shirt.

Shawn moaned lightly and he pulled away as I bit down softly on his bottom lip. He pulled away proped himself up "Yup, leading are very important" I said panting. I played with Shawn's hair and he smiled at me.

We laid next to each other with our legs hanging off the bed "You learn very quick and catch on. Whats the difference between them?"

"Uhmm. Everything, like yours lead up to it and it's like really good, I guess mine was a tiny make out session."

"Do you wanna like continue to the next part?" I bit my lips and I heard Shawn's breathing hitch right after. His turn on, good to note.

"Question? Uhmm, after the kissing happens I'm assuming we just undress each other right?" I asked looking over.

Shawn thought about it and shook his head "Well for me it's groping or grinding, undressing, and into the consent and sex. Or blowing each other, make out, undress and consent and sex." I got nervous, not excited nervous like earlier. "We could do this one at a time. It doesn't have to go all in one day. Look everything leads up to the sex, so it kinda gets repeated."

I nodded "Maybe another day we could do groping and shit, but I really need to do homework." Shawn sat up and handed me my backpack. "What else should I know?"

Shawn tapped his pen on his forehead and thought about it "Oh! Controlling your sounds, but that could happen later. It's used when at school, out and your turned on, when someone is in the next room over, but when your alone you could just let it all out."

I nodded and glimpsed over at Shawn as I did my homework. I kissed Shawn and I liked it. Shawn had this big goofy smile and turned back to doing his work, but the smile never left.