This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Lake Party

*Shawn's POV*

Yesterday was really weird, Macky kinda ran off. She was writing some stuff when I saw, then she started crying. I feel like the biggest jerk, after hiking I went to go find her and she was in her car crying.

When she told me that if we were still besties it killed me, to be the reason she's crying. She was crying over our friendship. Now, everything is okay. I want her to be happy, she's my happiness. If she's happy with Luke, then I'm happy.

We all got ready to go lake. Apparently Don has some friends that are put here camping too, they're going to let us drink with them. I grabbed a towel and I walked up front with Cameron and Matt. "So you guys are like good now?" Matt said. I nodded and kept walking "Did you find out what happened?"

I nodded "I guess she was writing a song, but when I saw her she was writing something down. I guess she thought I heard whatever the song was, but I didn't. She was in her car crying... She thought we weren't besties anymore."

"Are you guys?"

"Of course. What kind of question is that?"

They just shrugged "But don't you have feelings for her?"

I shrugged "I honestly just want her happy. If she's happy with Luke, then I'm happy. I'll get over it, plus there's this other girl on the hockey team that's been talking to me. It's been like two months since she was in the hospital." Someone jumped up on my back and wrapped their arms around my neck "Hey!"

I hooked my arms on Macky legs to make sure she doesn't fall off "It's so far, how much longer?" We only walked for ten minutes and she's complaining.

"About now! Come on!" Sierra screamed and running faster.

Macky tightened her grip around me. "Don't drop me!" she screamed and laughing. I ran faster until we got to the lake. Macky got down and walked around. She looked adorable; hi-waited booty shorts, a white Diamond Supply Co. DIY muscle tee with light rips tucked into her shorts, grey low top Converse, and a setback with a white diamond on it as she wore it backwards.

I took off my slippers and shirt and ran into the lake with Nash. We fought over a floaty bed and laughed.

*Macky's POV*

"He's going to MAGCON soon, huh?" Sierra said. I looked at her and ate my burger. "Cameron is going with him, that's how I know... Them two, Nash, Carter, Matt, and Taylor. Maybe they're right, hockey isn't really their thing. Look at them they smiles on people's face, you do too."

I sighed and looked at the water "We never go to it... Yesterday was the most we talked since I was in the hospital, even before that we got in a fight. Shawn brought it up before, but we never actually talked about it." I threw away my trash and looked at Sierra.

"What is there to talk about?"

"Shawn was the first person I met when I came to Australia, even though I didn't speak any sort of English we were friends. No one really knows this, but we always did things together. If he goes on holiday, they take me and the same for him." I put my elbows on the table and sighed "I known him since I was five years old, I'm 16 now."

Sierra looked shocked "That's a long time." I nodded "Do you want him to go?"

"Of course he's going to live his dream. Shawn's see has been the same ever since he learned guitar. If it wasn't that he would want to be an actor" Shawn was always meant to be in front of the cameras.

I grabbed a beer and drank some "You guys have the same dream, huh? If Shawn finds out he's not going to want to go?" I sighed and drank more. "That's why you said you didn't want to be a singer?"

"Ya... Traveling the world, people singing your songs, and people looking up to you; that's the best dream I could ask for. I love it..."

"Then, don't let Shawn wanting to live his dream stop yours" Sierra patted my shoulder and walked off. Someone sat next to me and Shawn was sitting there.

He smiled and I offered him a drink and he didn't take it "Why aren't you swimming? The water is perfect." I shrugged and finished my drink "What's wrong?"

"You should go to MAGCON, Shawn... Think about it, you're going to live your dream and travel the world" I said looking at the table. "Go, I'll always be here when you come back" Shawn hugged me and smiled.

He pulled away "You sure?"

"Shawn don't let me stop you from getting to your dream" I said smiling. I'm such a hypocrite. "Come on let's go swimming now" I quickly changed the topic and took off my shoes, socks, my shorts, and shirt. I ran off with Shawn chasing me until I was in the water.

I swam over to a rock that was sticking out of the lake in the middle and sat on top of it. I actually feel like a terrible person. I don't know exactly why, but something was eating at the back of my subconscious. I felt bad for Shawn, he's so kind, loving, and caring. Luke, he's funny, makes me feel better, sweet, cuddly, caring, and friendly; there was something about Luke that Shawn didn't have.

"Macky! Hello, come on let's go!" I snapped out of my thoughts and Luke was at the bottom getting my attention. I smiled and jumped down from the rock. "How do you even get up there? Wait don't tell me, you have crazy monkey powers too?"

I rolled my eyes and splashed him "It's called common sense." Luke splashed me back and swam after me as I tried to get away. I went underwater swimming faster and he got a grip around my waist, then bring us up. He held me tight and kissed my cheek, I smiled and felt myself turn red. Luckily it was hot and I was already burned.

I hugged him and we swam back to the shore, then dried off. "You look like a cherry!" Matt said laughing at me, I rolled my eyes and couldn't help but laugh too.

I put my shirt on since it was pretty big on me already "I need to shower" I said.

"There's these water heads, but you kinda have to wear a swimsuit. There's no privacy..." Don said. I sighed and he showed it to me "Better than nothing."

I walked over to my tent and Sierra took all the wet towels and hanging it on a rope line. I saw Luke laying down and only in shorts just staring at the ceiling of the tent. "What are you doing?" I asked.

"I'm bored. Lay down with me" he looked at me with a cute smile. How could I turn this down? Look at him, all Luke. I sighed "Please."

I groaned and grabbed another towel to shower and my shower stuff "After I shower. I stink." Luke laughed and got up "Stay here your tipsy" I said laughing at him. He made a funny face and grabbed a towel and his wet trunks.

We walked over to the showers and everyone was showering already. I walked over to an empty one and turned on the water. I put body wash on a scrub and cleaned my body, then shaved my legs and armpits, scrubbed my face, massaged in some shampoo and helping a tipsy Luke, rinsed it out and put in conditioner and letting it sit. I just waited and helped Luke get his head clean, then rinsed my hair out. My hair was incredibly soft. I dried off and wrapped my hair with my towel and walked to my tent.

Luke walked in with his towel around his waist. "Now can we cuddle" I rolled my eyes and looked for some undergarments to wear with pajamas. Luke got dressed and I got dressed while he held the towel up with a shirt covering his eyes "Don't drop it!" I screamed.

"I can't even see crap, what are you worried about?" He said laughing. His nose scrunched up and he looked so cute and squishy. "Are you done? How long does it take to get dress?"

I slipped on my sweatpants "There you giant baby" I rolled my eyes and helped untie the shirt from his head. I pulled the shirt away and put it in the pile of clothes in the corner, Luke immediately smiled at me. When I say 'immediately', I mean as soon as the shirt was removed and we made eye contact.

"Wow..." Luke smirked and I rolled my eyes at him. "The more you roll your eyes, they'll fall put of the sockets. Then your pretty blue eyes will be gone and you won't be about to see how hot and sexy I am."

Luke did a striker pose and I started laughing so hard and couldn't stop. "O-oh my g-god! I-I can't b-breath!" I held my side and laughing with tears falling. Luke stopped posing and laid next to me with his arms wrapped around me. "You're drunk" Luke just shrugged.