This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Talk To Me

*Shawn's POV*

Macky has been M.I.A. for the past few days. Well at least outside of school, I rarely see here at school and if I do she doesn't talk to anyone at all. The boys and I getting really worried about her, usually she'll talk to me about what's bothering her. This time she didn't.

Today there's hockey practice for all teams and Macky should be at the ice by now for her practice. Cameron, Matthew, Nash, and I got ready in the locker room then headed to the rink. "Look" Matthew pointed and I looked over, Macky had a line of pucks smacking them into the goal. "Are you going to talk to her?"

I sighed "She just ignores me all the time. Last time I talked to her was the day she took her dad to the airport. Ever since she kinda been M.I.A." I grabbed my hockey stick and got on the ice. "I'm gonna try to though."

I skated over and Macky just kept going and skating around. She lost the puck and it was right in front of me "What do you want, Mendes? I'm practicing" she said stopping in front of me.

"What's going on? You don't even talk to me or even text. What's happening?" I said calmly trying not to cause a scene. "Mackenzie."

She sighed and looked at me "Family problems, okay? Just let it go, I don't wanna talk about it. What about today any lessons?" Macky changed the topic.

"Sure, what do you wanna do? Netflix and chill? Cuddle? Your choice" I said, Macky just shrugged. "Your place or mine?"

She sighed and thought about it "Mine would be perfect, no one is home." I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Where's Dylan and Brooklyn?"

"My dad sent them to London with my grandmother the day he was deported..." she said softly.

"Why?"

"It's complicated, could we talk about this later?" she asked me. I nodded and she hugged me tight "I'm sorry for not calling or anything, it's been hard the past few days. I missed you, Shawn."

I hugged her back and kissed her head "I'm glad your back, Macky... Let's practice." She pulled away and smiled at me. Literally her smiles could make anyone's day better and smile too.

//

I laughed and laid on the bed and finding a good movie to watch. This Is The End. I put the movie on and my phone was vibrating.

Cam: Dude, wya. Remember we going to Nash's house
Your with Macky aren't you?

Me: Srry, Cam.

Cam: Fine. Just ask her out already, everyone knows you like her might as well.

Nash: Do it!!! She won't say no

Me: it's complicated. Later

Nash: Get some!!!

My jaw dropped. Wow, I'll be having sex with my best friend. A smile creeped up and Macky jumped into the spot next to me "Why are you so happy?" she asked giggling. I poked her nose "Shawn!" She started squirming around.

I stopped and played the movie "Just something Nash and Cam said. Do you wanna cuddle?" I asked nervously. Why am I so nervous all the sudden? It's just Macky.

We got under the covers and we cuddled just like that. "My mom is an alcoholic. That's why Dylan and Brooklyn isn't here, my mom hit them, so my dad decided to send them off to London. She's the one who gave Dylan the black eye..." Macky said out of the blue. Her head rested on my chest and her arms tighter around me holding one of my hands like usual. I knew them for 11 years and I never knew. "Remember growing up I always slept over or hung out with you?"

I nodded and rubbed her back as my hand slipped my hoodie she was wearing. "Ya, I remember..."

Macky looked up at me "Cause my mom... When I came over and had bruises it wasn't that I fell or Brooklyn and I were fighting, my mom was hitting me back then..." Macky was quiet after and didn't even look at me.

I sighed and kissed her head "Everything will be okay in the end, I promise. If it's not okay now, then that means that it's not the end yet it's just getting there." Macky looked up at me and kissed my lips as I felt her salty tears hit mine.

I pulled away and wiped them "Thank you..." she pecked my lips again, but more gentle and caring. Woah, that's a different feeling. "For everything you done the past years" I smiled and pecked her lips again. We watched the movie for a while and Macky's hand rest near mine and she held my hand.

My stomach was doing flips and I couldn't stop smiling. Stop! We're best friends and that's all. "Why do you do that?" she looked at me confused "Whenever we sleep together or cuddle you hold my hand like all the time."

"When I was younger my dad did the same. He told me that if you hold someone's hand in your sleep, you'll never drift apart from each other. In your dreams you could lose yourself and find something better than what's in reality. I guess it shows that even with all the good, nothing could top the person you care most about." Macky smiled and stared at our hands intertwined.

She cares about me the most. Yesss!

"I must mean that much then. If you need to hold my hand everytime for the past almost 11 years whenever we share a bed" I said back kissing her. She smiled into the kiss and I died for a couple seconds. Holy shit. "I care about you so much more than you think" I mumbled.

Macky pulled away and I looked at her and she had a smile on her lips too. The movie ended and Macky looked at me as she sat on my lap just smiling. God, thank you for her.

*Macky's POV*

God, you blessed me with the best person ever. I smiled at Shawn as I sat on his lap, my arms draped around his neck. Shawn has been working out a lot, it was hot. Shawn is perfect.

"What's today's lesson, Mr. Mendes?" I smirked at Shawn. I could see Shawn's chest fall quickly and rise again. I'm getting pretty good at this stuff. Shawn rested his both of his hands under his hoodie and squeezed my hips. "So?" I bit my lip and my hands rested on Shawn's abs.

I could feel Shawn's bulge grow beneath me. That's cute. I turn Shawn on. "I taught you too fucking well, McCoy" he mumbled causing me to laugh a little. Shawn leaned forward and kissed my neck "I want the jacket off" he held the hem of the jacket and pulled it over my head. I was left in underwear and a bra.

Then I got a lesson on good sex. I lost my virginity to Shawn. The best.