This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Hey

*Macky's POV*

I been in the hospital for three days and I can't sleep. How perfect is that? Not very. I grabbed my phone and decided to facetime Dylan and Brooklyn. They went to London last month and since Mom went to jail about two weeks ago I haven't really talked to them. I rang up Grandmother's number and her face popped up. "Hey, Grandmother" I said smiling. She smiled and looked at me confused "I'm doing fine, Grandmother, don't worry. Just a little tired..."

"We're doing fine. The kids are taking nap right now. So when are planning on having them back? Updates on anything?" Grandmother sat in a rocking chair, a small house three bedrooms, it was a more Victorian style.

I sighed "Well, Mom is in jail... Uhmm, weeks ago she came home drunk looking for Dylan and Brooklyn. I didn't tell her where they are, but she knew they were gone, threw a fit as she threw a glass bottle down the stairs. She slapped, I pushed her, and she pushed me back; I fell down the stairs got some glass stuck and passed out. Mom was gone when I woke up hours later, guys came over and took care of me for a bit. Later Mom showed up at Mendes house drunk and blood on her, Shawn told them about Mom. Mom has to do five years at least, the most is 10 years..." I sighed and Grandmother let out a deep breath.

We were both quiet and looking at each other "Why are you in the hospital?" I shrugged not wanting to tell her, that I'm unstable and someone needs to baby sit me. "Don't make me fly out there and make you tell me, Mackenzie" I sighed and reclined my bed up.

"I guess you could say I shut down... It's that with Mom going to jail left me all alone. Dad is deported and the kids are in London with you. What did I have left, everyone's gone? I'm just some spoiled rich kid, living in a mini mansion alone, and trying to be the strong superhero Dylan and Brooklyn sees my as. I'm not... my life is fucked up Grandmother." I started crying rubbing my face "I lost everything even Shawn."

I could see Grandmother crying now "You need to take care of yourself, Macky. Do you want me to come out there? Just give me the word and I'll be there with Dylan, Brooklyn, and Granddad. Macky, whatever happened with Shawn you gotta fix it. It doesn't matter if it was his fault or yours, he's the only boy in the world that will care about and love you more than a person could imagine. You could deny it, but you need Shawn in your life as a best friend or more." I nodded and dried my face of tears.

I sighed "I need you here, I need you guys to be here. I'm loosing myself by the second Grandmother..."

She smiled at me "I'll see you tomorrow night, Macky. The kids are awoken do you wanna talk to them?" I nodded and she handed them the tablet. "You guys are going home tomorrow!"

They were screaming like crazy, I couldn't help but smile watching them. "Macky! Guess what!?" Dylan screamed jumping up and down.

"What is it?" I asked back smiling. He showed me a tooth and smiled with his teeth. I laughed since he was missing a front tooth "Now how does that happen?"

Brooklyn started laughing "Dylan has a loose tooth and we were playing with a bounce ball and it hit him in the mouth yesterday." I shook my head and drank some water.

The two just rambled off about their 'holiday' in London. They were so happy there, but kept saying they can't wait to come back. "Macky?" my nurse, Janet, walked in and sat on the stool "How are you feeling? You know everytime I come to check on you at night your awake."

I sighed and shrugged, Dylan and Brooklyn sat there watching the nurse check up on me "She has sleeping problems" Brooklyn blurted out. Janet looked over at me and I chuckled "She's a light sleeper."

I laughed and Janett leaned over looking at them. "That's Dylan and Brooklyn, their my siblings. They're in London" I said "Anyways, when could I leave?"

She looked at the paper works, then the computer "Well, it says you should have been release a couple hours ago. Did a doctor come in to tell you?" I shook my head.

"I gotta go now, but I'll see you guys tomorrow. Love you, bye" we blew each other a kiss, waved bye, and hung up. I gave Janett my attention "So now what?"

She checked the time, 3:27am, "Well, if you have a ride we could release you or you could stay and leave in the morning. It's up to you." I sighed and looked through my contacts, the first name I stopped at was Shawn.

I hesitate to call him right away, I scrolled and looked for the next best options: Cameron, Matt, Nash, and Luke, then there is Shawn's parents. I'll pass and just walk, I need to think. "I'll walk, my friend doesn't live that far for here" Janett nodded and I got unhooked from all the tubes and needles. I went into the bathroom and changed into my normal clothes that was dropped off for me. I thanked Janett and left. As simple as that.