This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Quietly

*Shawn's POV*

Last night Macky and them stayed over since they didn't want to go home and it was a weekend. I kinda expected Macky to sleep with me in bed, cuddle, and show her morning and night kisses. She slept in the guest room with her siblings. Honestly I wanted to cuddle her up and make her feel better, but she was really vague about her feelings.

Majority of the time I stared up at the ceiling and just thinking about what could be wrong. Dylan had a black eye, I saw bruising around Brooklyn's wrist, and Macky was just quiet. Whatever was happening now, they obviously wanted no one to know.

My door opened up and slowly closed, the bed dipped down besides me and was under the blanket. Macky. She didn't say a thing to me, but clinged onto me.

I pulled her closer and kissed her cheek, Macky looked up at me and the light vividly showed her face. She straddled me and bent down kissing my neck and collarbone. "Damn" I said letting out a shaky breath, I bit down on my bottom lip and Macky kissed me.

"It's my turn" she whispered. Damn. Our lips crashed together and she pulled my shirt off, throwing it over my head. She sat herself right above me and rested her hands on my abs. I sat up and pulled Macky up along with me. Her hands ran through my hair and pulled on the roots I moaned softly and I could feel myself getting turned on. I couldn't do this, Macky wasn't mentally stable.

"You sure, you wanna have a lesson right now?" I asked pulling away. Macky nodded and pulled her shirt off leaving her in a sports bra and underwear. "God damn..." I mumbled to myself. "I guess you're learning how to be quiet and groping tonight" I smirked. My hands rested on her hips and I gripped them tight "Just move your-" she moved her hips in a slow circular motion and kissed my neck nipping at it.

"Keep telling me what to do" she whispered and kissing my jawline. I squeezed her hips and bit my lip "I just want to stop thinking about everything, it's about me and you right now."

I kissed her soft lips and pulled her closer, did the casual butt grab and slipped my tongue in and deeper the kiss. This one was different it was more emotion into it. Rough and hard. "Do you wanna keep going on with the lesson?" I said breathless and rubbing her hip with my thumb.

She smirked at me and pecked my lips "Tell me what to do, now" she giggled as cute and adorable. I felt my tip hit her and I covered my face as she hovered over me slightly. Oh my lord. "Maybe I could help with that" she said all seductive as she softly kissed me and her hands found the waistband of my boxers.

I grunted and pulled her up a little "Take them off" she pulled boxers and looked at my bulge wide eye. She smiled and kissed it lightly, my breathing hitched and I nearly died. "Seems like you know what to do, did you set me up?"

"Like you said I learn quickly" she massage my balls and palming it once in a while. I was ready to explode everywhere if she didn't help me. She's a tease.

I let out my breath and trying to balance it out again "Suck it, lip it, and shit." I picked up her hand and she gripped it. "Whenever your-" Macky already started before I even finished talking. Her tongue got the sides and she bobbed her head even faster "Shit" I held the blanket in my hands and bit down on my pillow. She started to give me a handjob and I moaned loudly as I got close "I-I'm close... Faster babe."

Macky mouthed my whole thing and just drove me crazy. Then I busted right in her mouth, Macky pulled back right away and spit it in the empty cup "Warnings next time" she grabbed my boxers and hand it to me.

I grabbed it and looked away. That's embarrassing. "I'm really sorry, it kinda just happens."

Macky smiled at me and kissed me one more time "it's fine, that was actually fucking hot. Knowing I turn you on by just kissing you, that's an achievement." We laughed and pulled her on my lap kissing her one more time and leaving a love bit on her neck.

"How was that?" she asked me.

I just smirked at her and she had a big smile "Amazing, A+ for you. I think you deserve reward" I said back and laying her down under me. I kissed her and left a trail as I moved down her body. My finger hooked onto the waistband of her underwear and I looked up at her, Macky nodded and I pulled them off. Holy shit, she is absolutely beautiful. "Your beautiful..." I mumbled, I held her waist to keep Macky in place as I worked my ways.

I kissed her as I slipped my tongue on her clint, she moaned and her legs began to shake "Shawn..." Hearing her moan my name was hot and a motivation. I deepened myself and Macky let out a loud moan by accident and pulled on my hair. "Fuck.." Macky hit her climax and I slowed down and pulled away. Macky was panting and her eyes were closed, I wiped my mouth off with tissue and did the same cleaning up Macky's downstairs.

I laid down after putting on my boxers and giving Macky clothes to wear. Macky rested her head on my chest, arms wrapped around each other, and just our breathing "You do good for first times." I honestly felt like a jackass, I took advantage of Macky, she wasn't straight in the head.