This Can't Be// Shawn Mendes

Shit!

*Macky's POV*

I woke up laying at the bottom of the stairs with little pieces of glass sticking my skin. I looked around and no one was hear it was just me and my breathing. What happened? My head was pounding and I slowly got up, groaning in pain. My shirt had spots of blood, dry blood on my forehead running down the side of my head, and my arms scratched up.

I looked around and the front door was open, blood staining the tile floors, and glass going down the stairs. I held onto the wall to hold me up as I walked into the kitchen going to the first aid kit. It was 9:45pm, it was about 4pm when I was doing homework. My phone was blowed up with miss class and text from the guys and friends, Twitter notifications, and Instagram.

A mirror in front of me, alcohol pads laid out, tweezers, band aids, and wraps. "OWww!" I pulled the glass from my arms and rubbing alcohol on it.

"Holy shit! Macky!" I heard an echo of voices throughout the house. Footsteps coming this way. I turned around and there stood the guys even Shawn, their jaws dropped to the ground. Shawn walked up to me and looked at me "Call an ambulance, Cam."

"No! I'm fine, leave" I said back. Cameron stood there with his phone out not knowing what to do. "You can't call for an ambulance, it can't happen. Don't worry about it" I said and they looked at me crazy.

Nash looked confused "Macky, you have glass all over you, bleeding, and a gash on your head. When we came the door was wide open with blood on the floor." I sighed and shook my head.

"At least tell us what happened?" Matt added. I shook my head "Macky, your bleeding out and didn't call an ambulance."

"I can't and I can't tell no one that's the problem" I said continuing pulling out the glass. "Could you call your mom, Matt? Just tell her to come it's an emergency" I stood up and Shawn helped me stand "I'm fine, I don't need your help" I snapped at Shawn. He pulled away and I held the table walking over to the couch.

Nash, Matt, and Cameron cleaned up the blood and glass "Matt's mom doesn't need to that when she get here" Taylor said putting a wet rag on my head. "Why can't you tell us what happened?" I shrugged and he sighed. "Why did you snap at Shawn then?" he brought up while Shawn was doing something.

"You know Luke, right? He's also on the hockey team. Well, I bumped into in the halls and we talked for a bit" I said.

Taylor nodded "Ya, blonde quiff, blue eyes. He's cool and stuff, really friendly with people. Wait don't tell me, Shawn came over and said he was your boyfriend. Then Luke left while he was hitting on you."

I furrowed my eyebrows "Nash told you?"

"Actually, Luke told me. He knew we were friends and I been talking with him for a while. So you and Shawn?"

I sighed "No we aren't like I don't even know why he would do that. He doesn't even know Luke and apparently he was protecting me from blue eyes."

"He likes you kinda" Taylor said quickly, my jaw dropped.

"What!?!"

"Luke said he kinda likes you, sorry that came out bad" Taylor said clearing it up. I sighed and Shawn walked over with a spare shirt. I changed my shirt and laid back down. "He saw you at Johnson's party a while back and asked if I knew you, I told him what he wanted to know" I nodded.

The door bell went off and Mrs. Espinosa walked in and over to me with the rest of the boys following. "What happened?" I was quiet and sighed.

Think! "I, uhm, was drinking and I fell down the stairs..." I said in response. Lying is my worst talent. She furrowed her eyebrows together "I missed my chance with a cute guy at school."

She nodded "I would do the same if that happened to me, now thanks for the possible scenario and tell me what really happened."

I was quiet and didn't say anything while Mrs. Espinosa cleaned the cuts on my head. "I can't tell what happened. I remember some parts vividly, but even if I knew exactly what happened I still can't..."

My phone went off and it was Shawn.

Shawsty: it was your mom huh? That's why you can't tell us? TBH your mom has a problem she's abusive, Dylan and Brooklyn is sent off to London Bcuz of her. I get that you don't want to be alone, but she needs help. If that's the case then you need to talk to someone. If not just know things will get better soon... xoxo

I sighed and shook my head "Are you done here?" I asked Mrs. Espinosa and she nodded. "Could everyone leave please?" they nodded and the guys hugged me. I looked at Shawn and nodded "Bye..." he nodded in response and they left.

What in the world am I suppose to do with my life? Dad is deported, Dylan and Brooklyn is in London, and Mom is just gone. My phone rang and it was the Mendes house, I answered it "Hi, Mackenzie. Shawn told us everything happened, are you okay?" She sounded really concern.

I sighed "Ya, I'll be fine just clumsy is all. Thank you for asking."

"Do you want Shawn to pick you up and you'll stay here for a while? Or I could go there and watch after you? Whatever you like" Mrs. Mendes was so nice.

"It's fine, I just want to be alone right now. Alot is going on, but thank you for the offer. I'll call if I need anything" I said in response.

She was quiet and there was mumbling as a doorbell rang in the background "Macky? You're mom is at my house..." my gut dropped out of my ass.

*Shawn's POV*

I checked the door and Macky's mom stood at the door with blood on her hands. Dad looked at me and I waved him over, I put my hand on the knob and Dad stopped me.

"Call the police and bring you sister to her room" Dad whispered to me. I did what he told me and called the police, I could hear people screaming downstairs.

"Go on your phone, listen to music at full blast. I'll be back" I told Aaliyah. I peeked from my room down the hall, police stood there pointing guns at Macky's mom. "Oh my god..." I called Macky but she didn't answer.

It was new, Macky's mom never came over drunk unless it was wine drinking with Mom. What really freaked us out was the blood on her hands. "You have the right to an attorney, if you can't afford one, one with be provided" the officer said cuffing her up and walking out towards the door.

I sighed and next thing was Macky running into the house screaming "Let her go, you can't take her! That's my mom, she's all I have left here!"

An officer pulled her back and looked at Macky "She's causing disruption of publicity. I was told that she's abusive, blood is on her and she's drunk, we're going to take her to the station."

I sighed and leaned my back on the wall when Macky saw me "This is your fault! I hate you Shawn! I trusted you enough to tell you and you tell everyone! You just ruined my life! I can't believe you did this, you of all people in this world..." Another police officer was pulling her back outside. I'm such an idiot.