The Great Pretender

Adieu

Mika

As days goes by im getting more and more comfortable with Kiefer. Im becoming more transparent sa kanya and its nice to know he's just there to listen. No judgements. Kahit minsan magkaiba opinions namin we always manage to agree to disgaree and for me, that's something.

My boyfriend invited me to have dinner today with him since matagal na the last time na nagdate kami. I know he wanted this to be special but its unusual na he'll tell me to tag along some friends so niyaya ko si Kiefer and my bestfriend Jessey to join us para di naman third wheel si Kiefer.

I told Josh to pick up Jessey sa UST and magkita nalang kami sa Megamall since malapit naman kami ni Kief sa area.

Halos magkasabay lang kami dumating sa Megamall, I ask them if ok lang sa Din Tai Fung kumain kasi sobrang nagccrave ako sa Xiao Long Bao kaya wala nang nagawa yung tatlo.

"Bf.. sure ka ba na gay si Kiefer? kasi swear di obvious.. or kung 100% gay na sya more than willing akong tulungan sya magbalik loob!"

"Shhh magtigil ka nga. May boyfriend yan."

"Okay lang!!! Kung ganyan ba naman..."

"Hey Jess, we can hear you y'know..."

My Babe butted in, making my bf blush sa kahihiyan.

"Yan kasi.. ang ingay. Di marunong bumulong. Haha! Pagpasensyahan mo na Kief si Jess ha. Ganyan talaga yan."

After dinner niyaya ni Jessey si Kiefer to shop leaving us ni Josh to have some quality time daw.

Kanina ko pa na papansin na uneasy si Josh and i dont know why ako kinakabahan..

"Babe.. is there something bothering you?"

"None babe.."

"You sure? Because I can feel na you're not telling me something."

"Uhm.. lets just enjoy the night. Shall we?"

We went ice skating, bowling then sobrang dami nyang couple stuff na binili that surprised me cause hindi kami fan ng mga gantong kacheesy-han. I swear there's something going on here...

Almost closing hours na kaya hinanap na namin yung dalawa and there they are.. laughing sa h&m. Mukhang close sila agad ah. Nice.

Kiefer said na sya na maghahatid kay Jessey para daw masulit ko si Josh. I dont know why pero I have the feeling na may alam tong dalawa.

We were walking ni Josh sa parking when he suddenly hugged me..

He hugged me so tight I had to push him to get some air..

"Babe.. don't."

"Just let me hug you.. Please give this to me..

"But.. Josh.. I cant breathe."

"Please Miks.. for the last time."

"What do you mean?"

He cupped my face and I saw his tears streaming down.

"Oh god, babe.. what's wrong? Dont cry.. Please.. Josh. Stop crying. What's happening? Tell me.. Pls?"

"Babe..."

"I'm leaving.."

"Leav..ing? What.. what do you mean you're leaving?!"

"Mika... listen to me.."

"Im leaving... for good."

"But.. that means you're leaving me as well, Josh. You're leaving me here!"

"I know I've been unfair to you.. And I've been thinking about this for quite some time now and everything happened so fast.. You were too busy achieving your dreams and.. its just that, I dont see my future here anymore."

"So you dont see your future with me.. Is that what you're trying to say? Geez, Josh! You've been thinking about this since God knows when and I dont have any idea about this? Why?! Who am I ba? Last time I checked Girlfriend mo ko. Wala ba kong say sa decision mo? Di ba ko important sayo?"

"Mika.. you'll always be special. You know that. I love you.. pero opportunity knocks, I cant just say no to this."

"and you can say no to me.."

"Babe.. hindi ganun.."

"So ano pala ha? Im just not part of your priorities? So where are you going and when do you plan on leaving me exactly?"

"Im not leaving you, Mika.. we can always talk naman there's facetime, skype.."

"You're so unbelievable, Josh! You're putting me in a situation na walang permission ko. You're so unfair!"

"Tomorrow.. 7am, Texas."

"See?! You didn't even gave me enough time to let this sink in. Ang bilis naman.. Ganun ganun na lang yun?"

"Babe.. I'm so sorry.. I love you.."

"No, BABE! Im so sorry.. I cant handle this.. Enough with the hidden agendas, Josh. This is too much.. I wont let you leave me.."

"But Mika.. I already made my decision.."

"No, Josh.. I wont let you leave me because I'm leaving you first.. We're over."

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Napaaga yung alis ni Babe sa story ko because damn... Huhu 💔 Ang layo ng Texas masyado para sundan si Josh.

So yea.. hurt ako. Super. He's like the ultimate bae/ideal man cause same kami ng position pati ng jersey number tapos he's so vocal pa with his faith and all and... huhuhu bakit Josh?! Bakit?! Pano mo malalaman na I'm going to marry you someday kung aalis ka na agad diba? 😭😭😭

Okay, so ang OA ko kasi super duper crushie ko sya like big time. Have I mentioned na crush ko sya? Okay, so crush ko kasi sya talaga. So ayun. Wala lang. Ang sakit. Bye. Magpapabook na ko ng flight.

I'll be praying for your future endeavors, Babe! Dont worry.. Tadhana will do its job, magkikita rin tayo pag ready na tayo pareho 😘😅

P.S. sorry ang haba ng author's note naging freedom wall 😂😂😂