The Great Pretender

Brisé

Kiefer

Mika is no longer the same B I know since Josh left. She's always busy or should I say.. acting busy? Late na sya umuuwi palagi. Madalas nakakalimutan nya rin kumain. She may not be vocal about it pero I know na she's hurting...

I always hear her cry at the middle of the night. She has no idea how I badly want to knock her door and comfort her.

What's holding you back, Kiefer? Y'know she needs it. She needs you.

But there's always this small voice in my head saying, "No, let her be. Let her do it her way.. "

It's been a month since we last talked. One month na rin syang gabi-gabi umiiyak and nagppretend na she's okay kahit obvious naman sa namamaga nyang mata. Di ko na sya nakakausap ng maayos.. Palagi nalang, "hey, kumain ka na? Dun lang ako sa room ko" then that's it.

Nakakamiss rin pala yung madaldal na housemate..

I really dont know what Im doing but I found myself dialing Jessey's number. Baka lang makatulong..

Mika

I dont think I can make it to work today.. Wala pa kong enough tulog. I know ang tagal ko ng ganto but anong gagawin ko? Im hurt. Pathetic? yea that's me.. but may nakakaalam ba how to take this pain away? Kasi sa totoo lang I am so done. Im tired of being miserable kahit this is my choice. I know na Im not the first person who got her heart broken pero damn this feeling.. Di ko alam kung pano ihandle.

I get up from bed just to get a glass of water sana but I saw my bf Jessey preparing food sa kitchen with Kiefer.

"Hi bf! Gising ka na pala, surprise! We're preparing your breakfast sorry natagalan nag grocery pa kasi kami ni Kief kanina"

"Wait.. kanina ka pa dito?"

"Uhmm no. dito, kakadating ko lang, but kanina pa kami magkasama ni Kiefer nagmeet kami sa grocery."

"Ang layo ata nang naabot mo para mag grocery?"

"Bf.. ano ka ba? Syempre naggrocery ako for you. It turns out ganun din pala si Kief. I heard di ka kumakain ng maayos. Mika naman.. take care of yourself."

I dont get what I'm feeling pero naiinis ako kasi magkasama sila..

or naiinis ako kasi kanina pa sya nandito tas di manlang nya ko sinilip.

Wait, yun ba talaga?

No..

naiinis ako kasi Im afraid na mas maging close sila ni Kiefer and I'd be left out.

"Ahh yea.. thanks for coming bf but Im not in the mood today. Siguro kayo nalang kumain nyan papadeliver nalang ako maya-maya"

I really dont know why I have to shut people out when I know in myself na I need them especially Kief and Jess but I didnt do anything about it, I didnt even tasted the food they prepared for me. Instead I went back to my room, locked myself, and for the nth time.. cried myself back to sleep.

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