the photographer [c.h.]

thirty-one

"Calum," I whispered and he hummed, drawing circles on my stomach under the water. "We should probably get out of here. I feel like a raisin."

Calum laughed and pressed a kiss to the back of my head before standing up. I did too and goosebumps rose to my skin as the col air hit my body. Calum handed me a towel and I wrapped it around my body, him putting one around his waist. I almost laughed as a small tent rose under his towel and he flushed.

"Stop laughing." He whined and I just laughed, running another towel through my hair.

We left the bathroom and I stole one of Calum's t-shirts, sliding it over my head. I put on a pair of underwear and sat down on the edge of the bed, watching Calum tug on his boxers. I dried my hair once more with the towel and laid back on the bed, a sigh falling from my lips. Calum jumped on the bed, positioning himself above me, and gave a small kiss.

Before he could pull away, I put my hands on the back of his neck, keeping him in place. I suppose Calum was shocked by my actions because he hesitated for a moment. Ever since the miscarriage, I didn't make any physical contact with him. This is the first time I've really kissed him in the last month.

Calum reached up and cupped my face in his large hands, deepening the kiss. I held onto his torso and he slipped his tongue in my mouth, moving this thumbs across my cheeks. I moved my fingers down his back and to his abs, fumbling with the hem of his boxers. Calum pulled away and looked down at me with concerned eyes.

"Are you sure?" He mumbled and I nodded, smiling a little.

"I'm sure." I whispered, running my fingers through his hair.

Calum leaned down and pressed his lips to mine, smiling into the kiss. He tugged at the hem of the t-shirt I had on and finally got it over my head. He held my hips and pulled them up to his, making me gasp into the kiss. Eventually our undergarments were thrown to the floor and his hands were roaming down my bare body.

His lips trailed down my jaw and he attached them to the side of my neck, most likely leaving a love bite. I tangled my fingers in his short hair and he slowly slid down my body. Before Calum could go any farther, I gripped his hands, making him look up at me.

"No foreplay." I breathed out and he smiled, the skin around his eyes crinkling up. "I just really need you inside of me. Now."

"I have absolutely no problem with that." He smiled and I laughed, wrapping my arms around his neck when he came up to face me.

Calum draped a sheet over his lower back and intertwined his fingers with mine next to my head. He looked down at me for reassurance and I nodded, looking up into his brown eyes. Calum positioned himself at my entrance and slowly pushed inside of me, making my breath hitch. It slightly hurt because it's been so long and Calum noticed.

"You good?" He mumbled and I nodded, clutching his shoulders.

"Yeah, just give me a minute." I said quietly and Calum nodded, kissing me. It was as if he was trying to take the pain away. "You can move."

Calum eyes me warily and I just kissed him to reassure him. He pulled out and pushed back in, a quiet moan falling from his lips. Calum attached his lips to my collar bones and I drug my nails down his back, leaning my head back onto the pillow.

"Calum," I whimpered and he smiled a little, kissing me.

"Damn, I missed this." He mumbled and I nodded in agreement.

When I got pregnant, I was scared of messing anything up so Calum and I didn't have sex at all. Trust me, it was frustrating for both of us. We just stuck with everything else without actually doing anything. And, damn, did it feel good to do it again.

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"Mmm, I love you so much." Calum sighed and I smiled a little, peeking up at him.

"I love you too, Cal." I said quietly and he smiled, intertwining our fingers.

He toyed with my fingers in the air and I watched his large hand envelope my small one, pulling them both down to his chest. I smiled to myself and Calum drew random designs on my bare back. He nudged his nose against my cheek, making me look at him.

"When does Sophie come back?" He wondered and I sighed a little.

"Tomorrow." I mumbled. "Alex is gonna drop her off in the morning."

I heard the doorbell ring and Calum groaned, not letting go of me. I laughed and slipped out of his arms, standing up. I pulled on fresh clothes and attempted to tame my hair before walking to the entryway. I opened the door and there stood Alex, Jason and Sophie. Sophie launched herself towards me and I hugged her back, looking at Alex in confusion.

"I thought y'all were coming tomorrow." I said and Alex shrugged.

"She wanted to come see you. I don't know." Alex said and I nodded.

"Well, we better go. You seem busy." Jason laughed and I turned around to see Calum coming into the kitchen with his hair messed up and no shirt on, showing a few scratches.

"I'll see you guys later." I felt my cheeks heat up and they both left with smirks on their faces.

"Cal Pal!" Sophie said, running over to him and he laughed a little, almost falling when she latched onto his leg.

"It's late, we better get you to bed."

Calum walked, having to go slow since Sophie still held onto his leg. She giggled and I couldn't help but laugh, following them down the hall. We walked into Sophie's room and she jumped onto her bed, getting under the covers.

"Night Soph." Calum said as we left her room and he was about to turn her light off when she spoke up.

"Goodnight, Dad." Sophie said, making me stop in my tracks. She's never said that before to Calum. Calum shut the door and looked at me with a small smile on his face.

"She called me dad." He whispered and I smiled, wrapping my arms around his torso.

"Are you okay with that?" I wondered, not really knowing how he would feel about the whole thing.

"I'm really okay with that." Calum smiled, tugging me to his chest, and I smiled too.

"I love you." I whispered.

"I love you too."