Welcome to my mind

Hey you remember my little crush??

Yeah so you remember how I was talking about my crush on this boy? Well this hoe I was talking to about liking him fluffing told him!!! Who does that?!?! Now I can't even be in the same room as him without my face going bright red ugh!!!! And then at lunch, when the hoe told me she told him, I'm all freaking out like my life is over, and at the end of it I run to my friend whining about this. And then I go to leave and I freaking run into him!!! I like step on his foot and I literally Yelp and jump back into my friends arms and OMG I'm not okay!!!! I always seem to embarrass myself infront of him ;-; but hey, he probably doesn't even notice, as he doesn't really pay me any attention like I don't exist, so that's something I guess....... Also I found his Instagram and there was a shirtless pic, rip my heart!! Also his Facebook and my friend coerced me into sending him a friend request and fast forward several hours later and he still hasn't excepted it ;-; oh! And I also found his YouTube channel!!! He makes some offensive jokes and I freaking hate him for it and wanna kick him but like I also really like him so I forgive him. God, I'm so freaking whipped for a guy who doesn't even know I exist