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What is sleep? What is that thing?? Ugh I have school in a couple hours, and still haven't slept!! And idk, I just don't want to!! Oh yeah, guys, I completely forgot to mention! Last Friday, I went to therapy for the first time!! They lady is pretty cool tbh, I have another appointment this Friday! And apparently something about me that I'm not gonna mention isn't normal, so I'm going to see a doctor next Wednesday...yay..... Um, what else?? Oh yeah, I'm pissed at my mother because she used the f slur word for gays that I hate.... Um!! School!! Well, I have to memorize so much for my performing arts and tons of people already have it memorized and I barely have two sentences so I'm basically screwed....ugh..... I'm also failing tons of classes from missing so much school..... So I'm panicking over that!! I have so much going on in my little tiny life, so so much...and I hate it tbh, I hate this life. Where do I even start? My mothers going to jail at the end of November, so I'm having Christmas this month! And we are like barely scraping by the month on food, we have literally none so.... But that's not bad, as I never really eat! But a bad thing for the rest of my family, since they need to eat :/ but mother gets money on the new month, child support!! That's literally the only reason she keeps me around, she gets money from it! But whatevs!!! I'm lazy AF so I keep not doing my homework which doesn't help with the whole failing school! My one friend today called me dumb and a dumbass and a failure, so that happened.... I mean, it's true, so whatevs! I'm still obsessed with one direction, getting more so obsessed if I do say so myself! I should really get a coffee maker, because I'm literally dying from lack of sleep and needs something to perk me up!! I hate sports, but I actually really like soccer!! I know, me, sports?! But I like it, I mean, I'm rubbish, but it's fun! What are some other things I'm willing to let you guys know?? Oh, sorry for not telling you guys everything, I just don't like when people worry about me :/ there's more important things to worry about then my basic problems, so yeah! Speaking of one direction, I literally spent half an hour just looking at pictures of their bulges and ish....what is my life? Also, tommo has the biggest butt ever!! Like yaaaaas!!! There's this guy in school who's very touchy feely.... And I don't particularly like being touched, so I hate when he touches me....or just the way he talks about me.... Like I know he was joking but he keeps commenting on my curves and earlier he kept on suggestively saying that I was a bad boy..... And I just don't like it, it makes me uncomfortable. Like, I want to cry! If he keeps doing it, I'll call him out on it, but oh well. There's also this dude, Nick.... Nick isn't very nice.... He always calls me a girl.... And he always tries to touch my boobs.... And he will poke me and say squishy...like I get it, I'm fat, but you don't need to point it out. And he'd always like jokingly hit me, like punch me in the arm and comment how I'm red, like Ofc I'm red you just fucking punched me!! So he's alright, but he makes me want to cry too. At least he isn't as bad as last year... Last year he'd literally grope me, like my boobs and ass, and I mean he still kinda does but not that much, which is good I guess? This one guy keeps calling me Hannah like wtf..... I've told you multiple times it's not my name.... Don't make me kick you, ya bean stalk! His brother hates me tho. Well, he did, idk anymore. All last year his brother would talk about me behind my back, calling me a dyke and just being homophobic and ish.... And then he'd talk about my friends like that!! Like, not cool!! I was about to beat him up and throw milk at him, but my friend begged me not to, so I didn't. But I still hold a grudge against him, because how can you be so hateful towards someone when you don't even know them? People! Gawd!!  Now, I'm like about to pass out, so imma try to get in a bit of sleep, at least an hour or so!! Wish me luck :P