I Won't Give Up Without A Fight

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Asteria:

A seizure is what they said. My brain is under too much stress. I have to return to school in a month and I'm amazed I haven't gotten any calls from work. So at this point, I'll have no classes, no job, and no Brendon...And that's my fault. I let out a sigh as the nurse checks my vitals for the third time. I'm just happy to be out of the hospital gown and back in my clothes. I have to get out of here. I can't just sit in here. I don't know what's wrong with me. The doctor is trying to figure something out but it's been two days and I haven't even bothered to call Brendon. Maybe I am being over dramatic...Maybe I should take him back.

"What are you thinking about, bug?" Davey asks. 

"I want to go home. I have to get ready to go back to work. I have to go back to school. I have to figure out something because I won't be able to pay rent for a while if I lose this internship." Davey looks at the ground and doesn't say anything. He usually does that when he know something that I don't.

"Pete's coming by today again. He wanted to talk to you about something. I spoke with your doctor this morning and she said that she's finding a solution for what's going on. She feels like she's getting closer." The nurse gives us a smile and shoots me a quick thumbs up, letting me know I'm okay before stepping out.

"I just need to get out of here and get back to my life, David. I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I need to go and figure things out. I can't just keep sitting here and thinking about my accident and if I want to be with him." When I say this, his eyes go dark. He's angry. 

"You would seriously still want to be with him, Asteria?" he asks me. He stands up. He's pissed. He's really pissed. He's shaking.

"I feel like...maybe I'm being over dramatic. Like maybe I overreacted and should have given him an opportunity..." He shakes his head at me and rolls his eyes.

"You always do this. You always blame yourself for another person's shit behavior." that's all he says and takes out his phone. 

"Who are you texting?"

"My girlfriend," he says aggressively. I feel a wave of guilt wash over me. I've been keeping him from Ana. 

"Davey, maybe you should leave," I say quietly. He nods and grabs his bag before heading out. 

"What are you eating for lunch?" he asks without looking at me. 

"I'll just eat what they have here," I tell him. He nods and walks out. The rest of my father's letter stares at me, reminding me that I'm alone and now would be a good time to read it. I decline its offer and decide to go for a walk around the hospital wing. I take my heart monitor clip off of my finger and let the nurse know that I'll be on the same floor. 

I head through the halls and I try hard not to look into the other rooms. When I get to the end of the hall, I take a seat on one of the small couches and look out of the large window that offers a view of the city. I'm instantly regretful and reminded of Brendon and wonder if he's at the top of his skyscraper right now. I wonder if he's written anything lately...I watch the small cars drive through the streets and the planes preparing to land at the JFK Airport. Everything in every city reminds me of him. I take my phone out of my pocket and bite my lip. 

A: What are you up to today?

I wait, staring at the screen, hoping for the little check mark to show up and tell me that he got my message. 

"Aren't you a little bit past that anxious and eager phase?" I turn to see Pete smiling at me. I give him a small smile back and leave the phone at the small table near the wall. I motion for him to sit with me. 

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