disconnected / l.r.h

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September 14, 2015

Well, I'm leaving Florida today, back to California.

I've just been so out of the loop; I think it's from being around Luke so often. He really
messed with my heart.

"Hey- you ok?" Ashton comes join me at the tour bus living room area.

"I guess. Can't believe the tour is over." I say turning my attention to his breath taking eyes. Ashton has always been my buddy. He's so considerate of other people's feelings and I love it.

"I know this is pretty like irrelevant to ask you- but how did you feel about being with you know who."

"My emotions got all confused. I looked at the blue eyed boy I once was in love with and my heart just took my mind over."

"Yeah, you looked at him like the stars were in his eyes. Every time I saw you two together."

"Stars were in his eyes? People are always comparing the ones they love to the moon, or the stars, like love is some bullshit metaphor." I scoff and Ashton furrowed his eyebrows.

"But I kinda get it now, for when your'e truly madly in love you cant believe that the person sitting across from you is actually from this simple earth. But to me, he wasn't just the stars or the moon honey, he was my whole night sky."

"You know sometimes I wonder Ashton. Why do we always do this to ourselves?" I say gazing away from his eyes. "But I guess its a whole lot easier to let myself see 'the stars in his eyes', than to be alone."

"I get it" Ashton nods his head. "Just being in love always ends up ruining our hearts but it's good to let people in. It gives us something to believe in." I leaned my head up against Ashton's shoulder, he smiles looking down at me. The day was cloudy like my mind, but somehow it helped me feel at peace. It made me feel like somehow for once it was okay to feel lost. And I know deep down it is.

And then I got a call, it was Calum. Saying my taxi was here to take me to the airport. I felt my heart fall. It's time to move on.

"Ashton. Walk me out?"

"Of course." We walked off the tour bus and into the hotel parking lot. I saw Calum and Luke standing in front. The sun was shining and it was beautiful out. "Thank you Ashton for listening and being the greatest friend I could ask for."

"I love you babe." He kisses my forehead as we part from the hug. "Stay safe and call us right when you get off the plane."

"I will. Thank you, see you soon." I walk over to Calum and we say our goodbyes. Michael comes up from behind me and hugs me tightly, there were tears in his eyes. Aw what a kitten he was.

"See you soon Mikey- try not to kill the other boys while I'm gone."

"No promises." We laugh as we hug once more.

"Tell my sister I love and miss her too!"

"Will do, Mikey."

And now the moment you've all been waiting for. Lucas Robert Hemmings. Alright crowd! I'm outtie.

"Luke." I half smile, "Adrianna." He says and I jump into his arms. "I don't want to ever let go."

"Then don't." He kisses my hair and my heart races. I will never fall out of this trance.

"See you soon." I breathe looking straight into his eyes. They were just like the stars. They had me mesmerized every time.

Luke nods instead of saying anything. Him and I both knew it wasn't the best time to just come throwing things at each other so I let go of his hand and made my way to the taxi.

"I love you Adrianna," I think he just said I love you... Did he just say that? "I love you too Luke." I mumble opening the car door.

I hate the feeling when you say goodbye to someone you want to spend every time with.

OK BUT THE BRONCOS WON YASS & ITS BEEN A YEAR SINCE OTRA 😭