disconnected / l.r.h

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Adrianna's pov

To my baby, You haven't left my thoughts. Ever. Not even once. To put it quite simply, I miss you. I miss the way you would confide in me. I miss the stories you would unfold in my ears. I miss feeling your smile even if it was only on the phone. I miss every moment lived with you. I despise every moment without you. I miss the portrait I've painted of you with my mind. And I could spend hours trying to explain why it still hurts, but it's quite complicated and all I know is that I miss you. And sometimes I'd rather not know that you miss me too. I would love to know why the thought of you still keeps me restless at the oddest hours of the day, but what I would love even more is to know if I have the same effect on you. Your eyes are still my favorite place to get lost in. Your heart is still the only place I can call home. Your arms are the single greatest comfort I've come to know. And call me crazy, but I don't think you'll ever understand the effect your smile has on me.

Sometimes when I look at you, I just want to kiss you. More than anything, I just want one kiss. A kiss to tell me that you trust your lips against mine. A kiss to prove to me that I can still see the world with my eyes closed. A kiss to remind me that actions do truly speak louder than words. I miss the paradoxical feeling of having my lungs filled with the sweetest air possible, yet still feel so breathless.

And now what terrifies me the most is that I failed you. I traded away the happiness I found in your hands that fit so perfectly with mine. I traded away the peace I found when you rested your head on my chest to listen to my heart beat. I traded away the harmony I found in your voice when you talked me to sleep while I ran my fingers through your hair. I traded away the bliss I felt when you first called me baby and made me realize that I would never be the same again.

Think of this as a simple love letter- full of emotions I cannot express, telling you everything you should hear with the words only my heart could comprehend. You are everything when I'm convinced that I should be nothing at all. Simply put, thank you. For every second of your time, every ounce of your patience, every bit of your effort, and every drop of your love.

I hope that you still haven't given up on me yet. And I hope that you'll still be there to give me another chance because I would give you that second chance. We are building a family together and I'm more than grateful for that opportunity. And as stupid and embarrassing as this sounds, last night I watched you fall asleep and I cried a little because I made this huge mistake and I don't want to lose you.

They say that girls aren't worth my tears, but I want you to be the girl that's worth my tears. I know that there'll be times where I can't always make you happy. I know that there will be times where I won't be able to see you because of my job, but know that I really just want to be with you right at that moment and know that I just want to be in your arms. I don't need you to kiss me every minute like how some couples are because I'd rather you just surprise me. I'll love it when you make me laugh, even if it's something completely stupid, a cheesy joke, a silly face, anything, I'll love it. I'll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any film. We can go to the park and run around, you can chase me around the playground. We can stay up all night on the phone and not even say anything to each other. I just want you to know that you're my home, my happiness and my whole heart. I'm going to end this now; I think I really did say a lot but just know I can say so much more. I love you, Adrianna.

- Love, your idiot Luke - 5:07 AM

I look up from the handwritten note and smile. Luke wrote this for me at such an early hour. I'm so flattered and in love with him and now I swear the water works are coming.

Damn these bitch baby tears. I set the papers down where it was originally as I hear fumbling at the door. I'm in attack mode, I grabbed the first thing I saw and waited there in karate form but then heard the door beep from a key and Luke walks in.

"Adrianna?" Luke walks in and laughs at me ready to fight a bitch. "Oh," I laugh putting the hairbrush down, "it's only you." I say as I run into his arms. He giggles as I kiss his lips. "You need to stop making me cry, Luke. These bitch baby tears are hell."

"You read the note?" My boy chuckles as he carried me to the bed. "Yes and I have no words, I love you." I dig my head into his shoulder and he kisses my forehead.

"Hey, you took out your lip ring?" I pout looking at his lips, wanting to kiss them so bad. "Yeah, I'm going to be a father soon," he says and I smile. "Ooh, speaking of that," I take his hand and place it on my not so skinny belly. "Can you feel kicking?" I ask and he laughs. "No," he says and we burst out laughing.

"Hmm, I do, obviously but maybe the twins need their to hear their dad sing for the first time." I look up at him and my cheeks flush. Luke smiles and nods as he starts singing.

"Hey babies, it's your daddy here," Luke starts talking. "Luke! Sing!" I laugh as he traces circles on my belly. "Alright, fine. It's going to be weird though."

"It won't," I tell him, he nods and begins to sing. "Settle down with me
And I'll be your safety
You'll be my lady

I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms

Oh no
My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We're falling in love,"

"Aw, baby," I say as I kiss him. He giggles and I feel tiny kicks, "do you feel them?" I laugh as Luke's smile grows bigger and bigger. "Yes!" Him and I both laugh as his eyes look into mine.

"So, you're 5 months baby girl, we gotta pick some names." Luke tells me as we are laying, down together. "Yeah, I hope they have your eyes and those dimples." I poke at his cheeks and he giggles pulling me closer to him.

"And you're chocolate brown wavy hair and you're perfect personality- and those lips, those damn kissable lips." He says and I playfully scream as he attacks my lips. Every time Luke and I kiss I fall more and more for him.

"I love you, Luke."

"I love you too-" he begins but then again, there's this noise and I jump. Luke holds me as the beeping goes off again, two seconds later a wild Michael and Trinity run into our hotel room. "Surprise it's us- ahh they're in the bed together." Michael screams covering both his and his girlfriend's eyes.

"Are we interrupting sex?" Trinity laughs as I roll my eyes. "Nah, just baby names," I say as they jump on the bed.

"Mate, how'd you get in here anyway?" Luke asks, his accent thick and very adorable. "The key was on the floor outside, Luke. You giant idiot." Michael says and we all laugh.

"Luke and Adri are having baby penguins!" Trinity shouts and I laugh. "So lemme hear them girl names," Trin's New York accent makes me laugh. "How about Lucy?" Luke says, "Lucy Hemmings." I say and smile. "Lucy and?"

"Hmm, gotta get back to that- my brother bought me a baby name book, what about boys?" I look over at Luke who was looking at me, he smiles and I literally die inside. He's my life.

"Michael!" Michael shouts and I laugh, "You woulda thought, mate," Luke jokes and we all burst out laughing. "Adri, how long are you staying here for?" Trinity asks, "I'm going to leave tomorrow night- next week I have some more doctors appointments and then I guess I'll see you all at the reveal party!"

"I think we're having boys," Luke says and I pout- "I'll definitely be out numbered!"

LONG AF but school :/