disconnected / l.r.h

19❤️

Adrianna

I've seen it all and been through much but that doesn't give you an excuse to shut me out. We used to talk everyday, now it's like we don't know each other anymore. I love you, you've seen me at my greatest and my worst. Why can't you just stay?
                   ~ Luke // 2014

Oh. My. God.

What is this? What did I just find? I stare down at the crumbled piece of paper I found in my suitcase I don't remember receiving ever. Shivers run through my spine and I feel the world slow down and everything is spinning. He was hurt. After we broke up, after he cheated. It wasn't just me and now I am starting to remember an awful lot.

Suddenly a streak of light shines through the window and my thoughts are no longer about Luke and I. I need to start packing, Harry is taking me and the rest of the gang to New York City to celebrate my 21st birthday. It's gonna be great, Harry's like a brother to me because my real brother only seems to care when he needs something and my sister is on a 'finally married the love of my life' high and hasn't spoken to me in weeks; which leaves my brother's best friend who takes more care of me than any of them ever had. I'm the youngest so it's not really odd.

I hear a knock on my door and begin to panic, I'm nowhere near done with packing my clothes, I didn't even start yet my clothes are in neat piles on Luke and I's bed. I hope he packed already he is out with Ashton and Cal.

"It's open!" I scream as I grab a pile of clothes and stuff them into the carry on.

"Baby girl!" Luke!, just the person I really didn't want to see at this moment. Don't get me wrong I'm in love with him but the sudden memories that flooded my thoughts are making my mind all crazy.

"Hello love," I smile, I'm panicked what if Luke finds that fucking note. Oh shoot where did I put it. I hug and kiss my boyfriend and ask him how his day was while I retrace me steps and cautiously not make a big scene looking for this note that I should have read in the first place instead of tucking it into my bag at the time and leaving my whole life to move back to Cali.

Wow, I talk a lot. Gotta find that note!

"It was alright, we went to check on Ashton's new place. It's really nice, we can go there when they're done with the kitchen!" He smiles grabbing me and twirling my body to directly press against him like we were dancing. I giggle and sigh. "I uh, missed you today. You weren't the when I woke up I was really nervous something had happened."

I stand beneath my love as his pushes my hair away from my face. We get lost in each other's eyes for some time. But my mind never sleeps.
I cannot believe I just fucking lost that note. I set it down for one second, geez!

"Hey baby girl what's this?" Luke's voice made me come back to reality and now I'm going to die because Luke is walking to my dresser where the stupid letter was.., stupid, stupid Adrianna.

I rush over to the clueless blonde and snatch the piece of paper before he can even unfold it. "Um, I honestly have no clue," I nervously say never making eye contact with him.

"Adrianna, I already opened it," he sighs walking to the window. Shit.

"Luke, I- I just found tha-" I start but am almost immediately cut off by his raging voice.