IT'S CONFUSING!

chapter 7

"Thank you Vick! I had a great time today .Though I was 'kidnapped ' I had fun" I thanked vicktor with a happy smile on my face.  We were  now seated in his car as Vick drove me back to my home.
After our almost  intense  'heart to heart' speech up in the roller coaster I had not  uttered a word till now but then I realized  that though  I was torn and sown back together again and again on the inside  , Vicktor made me not only to smile but he made me happy.
" wait hold that thought Kiera"
Vicktor  chirps with a sly smile .
I swallowed  hard as all the color  drained from my face  "Wha.. what are you talking  about?" I enquired to which he shook his head and 
placed  his cold Steel like finger  on my lip with zero proximity  and said "don't  worry Kiera  I won't hurt you ".
I wobbled my head at him as I  sunk back into my seat with pink stained cheeks.
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"Wake up beautiful  We are here ."
Vicktor  coos into my ears as he slightly  shook me by my arm.
I must have fallen asleep  on our way to  wherever  he was taking  me..again.
I fluttered my eyes open with slight tingles on my arm where Vicktor just happened  to touch me.
"Oooh someone's  getting  MORE interested  in vicktor " my inner voice smirks at me cockly .
I shook my head to clear myself as I made my way out of his car with a bruised  ego.
As I made my way towards  vicktor I found  something  different  about him.
Something   very dangerously appealing  .
He was a sight for sore eyes.
Dressed  in all his black glory  which made him look like the night God himself.
His Bay blue orbs where lit with silvery streaks due to the moonlight.
He was smiling  at me , this definition  of perfection  smiling  down at me.
I was openly gaping  at him " is it just me or does  he look different  ?"  I questioned  myself . "Well maybe you are finally  looking  at him .. great job Kiera you are finally  growing  up" my inner voice replied with sarcasm  dripping  from her words.
I was brought  back to Mother Earth when someone  cleared  their throat.
"Well as much as I would  like to Stare at you ,I want you to see something  . Come on beautiful." Vick said as he smiled down at me.
"Uh.. okay "I replied  with Embarrassment  written  all over my face. I felt like a kid caught red handed.
I took a deep calming  breath before falling  in step with vicktor .
We strolled around  the deep rich gardens  brought  to life by the moonlight.
" um Kiera?  Do you mind if I ask you something? "Vicktor  asked . I stopped  on my track and turned to face him as I nodded my head at him to continue.
"Well , when you were talking ' your heart ' out about the things you wanted me to do if I intended to murder  you and dump your body in the woods you said,  I quote,"tell my mom to NOT give my shoes to anyone  ? "
He  questioned  with amusement  crystal  in his Bay blue eyes.
" Uh uh.. well I kinda like shoes.. okay scratch that I happen to LOVE shoes . So what? "  I replied  as I tried to contain  my growing rage.
"Shoes? Really?  Of all the things out there,  you like shoes! " He  exclaimed  as he tried his best to suppress his chuckle. 
                      I was fuming.

"Ya I Do love shoes , you've  got a problem  with that now vicktor? "
I

shot back at him while I was  shooting  daggers into his head.
"Well don't get me wrong there Ria.
If you ask me what I loved the most I would  say playing  soccer , my sister,  my cars , you well of course  you , my friends  "
Vicktor  stopped  mid sentence  as we both stared at each other with shear shock clear in our eyes.

I burst out laughing  as I fell on the lush grass beneath  me while I clenched  to my stomach.
Soon enough  Vick joined me ,  laughter  filling  the deep dark woods surrounding  us.
We were sprawled  out on the grass as I tried to suppress  my giggles.
" I do love you, you know  " Vicktor  said  as he was looking  at me with such electrifying  intensity.
"Ya well Good luck with that "
I snort at him as I continued "I mean who falls in love in like nine hours ?
I mean  we barely  even know each other's
  last name!" I reply while I laughed  even harder to what Vick just said.
"Who said  anything  about me barely knowing  you?" He questioned me with  a shrug.
That shut me up for good .
I faced him while I was trying  to comprehend my next few words while vicktor  continued speaking  "I first laid eyes on you last year around  September,  when you came to our common library  to fetch some books .
That smile , that powerful  smile on your face . Damn I was a goner before I even knew it.  You had this bright aura around  you which made my heart stop for a second.  Trust me Kiera  I'm  not the type of person  who gives a damn about girls. In fact I loath them. But that all changed  when I saw you. You changed me Ria. You changed me for good  ".He said as he touched  my cheek .
"I've fallen madly in love with you and the best part was that you didn't  even know about  my mere existence .
When  we bumped into each other  yesterday  I can't  tell you how euphoric  I felt Kiera.
I guess I have to thank the lords for finally  putting  me out of my misery "
Vicktor  continued  speaking  dreamily  about me.
By the time he was  done tears were flowing  freely from my eyes  and for some unknown reason I was smiling  at him at the same time.
Vicktor face softened  even more as he took my head in his big arms .
He wiped my tears away . With concern etched face he questioned "what is it Ria? "
And there in the dark lush blissfully silent  paradise  I got a taste of how it would feel like to be cared for.
And I did love it but unfortunately  I loved My Aiden more.
I sniffled my tears and shook my head at vicktor as I said " I never knew  about any of it Vick. You are a good man and any girl will be over the moon to have you as her man. I wish I had met you before him . I wish I could throw my arms around  you and scream on top of my lungs that I love you too. But I can't Vick. "  I could  feel vicktor  stiffening  next to me . His hold on me becoming  tighter. I smiled at him as I kept my hand on top of his and continued " If it was the other way around  I would have kidnapped  you for all Eternity  you know.  I have never been given a chance to feel loved and cared about but though  I was with you for only a few hours you made me feel special  . You made me feel good about myself. You took  care of me Vick and for that I will forever  be in your debt.
I wish I could  give my heart to you vicktor  but I already  gave mine to a notorious  brat. I know my excuse  for not feeling  the same way about you like you do about me is absurd but thats  the only thing that I have to give to you. It's the truth Vick.  It's not that I won't love you ,it's more like I can't  vicktor."
I finish  my rambling  as I look up at him only to find vicktor  with a pained expression  still looking  at me with a smile.
"I wish I was that notorious  brat you gave your heart to Kiera. If I had loved you before  , I love you even  more  now for What you just said . You are kind, you protect what you love with such ferocity  that it makes me go in awe.
I adore you Kiera. And as much as I would  love to kidnap you for real this time I respect  your decision  . " Vicktor placed a feather like kiss on my forehead  , with that he backed away putting  a nice amount  of distance  between  us.
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Vicktor  insisted that he will drop me at my place even after me rejecting  his once in a lifetime  kinda proposal.   We were seated in his car , it was neither  a comfortable  silence nor a thick tension  that crowded our cramped little space.
It was the silence that fell right after when  two hearts which were meant to be together  depart for some insane reason.
Though  I only knew vicktor  for almost a day . I felt something  strong , something a  hundred times stronger than what I thought  I felt for Aiden.  But I had to end it . I had to do that for vicktor.  I didn't  want to give him false hope and I never will do it.
He halted  his car near my house and just before I could get out " one more thing Kiera. .." if your notorious  brat ever breaks your heart. You. Are.mine. "
With that vicktor  drove off into the gloomy night. 
"And...he's back!"
I grin at his retreating car and made my way to my humble adobe.
I stop on my track when I see someone  smirking  at me.
He was tall, dark , well built .
His eyes were a dark shade of brown they were almost molten bronze.
He looked like Aiden.
"Wait.. Aiden!"
I smacked myself in the head  as I gave out a dry laugh.
"Great. Absolutely  mind bogglingly great! Before it was just his voice that I used to hear now and then but now! I'm hallucinating .  Good work Kiera.  If you keep up this pace you will definitely  score yourself  a nice luxurious  bed in the lunatic  asylum  even before you score yourself your PG seat in a nice college . Just great".
I made my way towards  my handsome  hallucination.
"I know you are not here and that you are just a fine piece of my imagination.  But I'm  both emotionally  and physically  drained  to give a damn about it.  Why did you ask me such a cheap thing Aiden? Why?
Did you consider  me for one of those despos who throw themselves  at you ? Or is your head finely  placed in your ass? " I yelled. By then tears were rushing  out of my eyes and I was too far gone to care. I know I looked like a lunatic  standing  in the middle  of a street and shouting  at nothing.
" jeez my hallucinating skills are beyond comparing. This one even smells like my Aiden. " I murmur to myself as I continued  cursing  at my stern looking  hallucination.
Just when all hell was about to break out and before I could  test my banshee screaming  skills my front door opened revealing  my mom looking  at me with  questioning  expression.
"Well  I take it that you have already  met out guest for dinner. Kiera say hi to one of my charismatic  student Aiden Ruth.  You kids better come inside it's getting  cold out here " with that my mom walks off towards our dining  room . She just dropped  an entire  nuclear bomb on top  of her only daughter  and she left me unattended.
"Can my life get any better?  " I cursed myself  as I muster the very little  amount of courage  left in me to look at him . Before I could even lift my head up to meet his gaze I was pushed to my hard brick wall lining  my front porch . I was about to scream but that jerk put his firm hand on mouth .
"I never considered  you to be one of those despos.  I expect you to fight for me Kiera. I expect you to fight for us"
He said, with desire clouding  his molten bronze eyes.
He walked back into my house after looking  at me for  one last time, leaving  me angry and aroused  at the same time.
"What in the hell is he talking about?
When in the world did 'We' happen?
Am I the only one who had feelings for him or does he share the same feelings  too? "
Am I confused or is it confusing?