IT'S CONFUSING!

chapter 10

"He had to do that.
He had to put me through  all of that .
Do I mean so little to him ?
After what he knew that I felt for him, he still had to steak me right through my heart".
After my "extremely  normal" encounter  with Aiden and his partner  for the night, I came back to my room and almost killed myself when I stumbled  into my old wooden shelf.
My  body was shaking  from head to toe and  my legs finally  gave up on me.
I sunk into the floor and sobbed my heart out.
My legs had a huge scratch. (Courtesy  of  the wooden shelf) which was coated  by  fresh ruby red blood . It hurt.
But the way my heart twisted on the inside,  the scratch  felt like nothing  compared  to the one that my heart   was enduring.    I was not just betrayed  by his flimsy act , I was broken.
I pushed my deshelfed self from my wooden floor  and fell into my bed.
I stared into the dark ceiling  praying  desperately for the sleep to consume me. "But how can I sleep when he is within  my arms reach but with  another  girl? "  as tears started to prick my eyes again,I closed  them shut as I took my bottom  lip between  my teeth to stop myself  from weeping . 
I was hurt physically .
I was drenched in  froth.
But most of all I was shattered  on the inside.
"You are strong  K. You can make it out alive. "  I chanted  those words to strengthen  my defenseless self. It was the weekends and I had to put up with him for the next two days before heading  back to my college . "Two days . Just two days and you can let go of him for real this time " I muttered
It was almost  three in the morning,   after a lot of twisting  and turning in my bed,  I had finally  managed  to fall asleep.

I woke up when I felt my right side burning.  I shot straight  up from my bed as I groaned out loud . "Someone must have opened  my curtains  "  I grumbled.
It took my eyes  sometime to adjust to the sudden  burst of light.
When I regained  my eye sight they zoomed in on the brute who happened  to  be sitting  in the stool next to my bed and looking  at me with deadly  intensity.
I had to blink a couple of times to make sure that  my eyes were not playing funny games with me. But when I opened them again  that brute was still there!,this time with an amused expression  on his pretty face.
"Get dressed.  We are leaving  in an hour. " Aiden ordered. He was seated in one of the stools , dressed  in a casual  white shirt and a worn out Jean. Though  he looked mouthwatering  his eyes looked tired like they haven't gotten  a blink  of a sleep last  night.  "Well how would they have ? When  they were busy assaulting  the bitch ? " I inwardly  cringed as the realization  dawned on  me.
I was emotionally  and physically  drained  to actually  give a damn about what came out of his stupid  mouth.
I raised my eyebrows as a dry laugh escaped from my lip.  "What happened Ruth? Did your whore walk  out on your sorry ass? " I taunted him as I smiled  sweetly .
His face turned grim and I smirked
"Keiria 1 , Aiden 0"
And continued  "or maybe you were just beyond  repair in the bed that she had to run away first thing in the morning. I'm sorry but I don't do fuck faces " I spat  out at him.
In one swift  movement  Aiden had come so close to me that we were nose to nose . He gripped both my arms , his eyes swimming  with emotions . My heart lept to my mouth as I struggled  to free myself from his iron grip. " le..let me go Aiden . Y..yuh..you are hurting  me " I stammered as my eyes became glassy .
Aiden winced  as he jumped back a few steps as he desperately  tried to come up with an answer for his downright behavior.  He let me go in  lighting  speed that I stumbled  back a step or two before regaining my balance.
"I'm sorry Keiria.  I.. I didn't  mean to hurt you. I'm sorry... " Aiden spoke for the first time his words as sweet as a sugar rush.
He took a  step foward and reached me as I stood rooted to my spot and placed his hands on top of mine as he continued  " And for the record  , the bed will be the only thing that needs any kind of repair if we happen to spend the night " with cheeky grin forming  on his lips as his eyes glint with mischief , he took a step away from me and shoved his hands in his pant pocket and wriggled his eyebrows.
By the end of his act I was gaping  at him openly  like he had grown two heads.  "Holy sprinkles ! Did he just say we?? As in we 'we'? . God! This guy is gonna drive me crazy!" 
I gave out an exparted  huff as I put my hands up in the air . I stomped my way around my bed and sat Indian  style on the floor. "What do you want me to say Aiden?  Why can't you leave me alone? Why do you keep coming  back when I'm trying  my best to let you go?" I pleaded to Aiden as I put my head down in my hand.
"Hey. I know that after all the things that I've said and done that I don't deserve  a second chance but the thing is Keiria I can't let you go. I just can't. 
I want you to give me a second  chance K. if you do give me one ,I want to do it right. I wanna take you out , make you feel special  because  you deserve  the best Keiria and God knows that  I am nowhere near to being   the best but I will promise you that I will give my everything "  Aiden  said. He had somehow managed  to tiptoe to where I was seated and was crouched down next  to me as he took my hands in his. His eyes filled with sincerity. 
I was dumbstruck and all I could manage to do was shake my head up and down as color  rushed to my cheek.
He pulled me up with no effort and hugged me as he  said "Thank you Keiria.  For giving  me a second chance."  It didn't  feel wrong , it didn't  feel right but the way he embraced me, it felt natural.
"I'll  uh..wait outside" He informed me as he scratched his head.
I wobbled  my head and made my way into my closet.
"Maybe miracles do happen after all "
I mumbled to myself with a small smile forming  on my lips.