IT'S CONFUSING!

chapter 11

Aiden's pov:

She looked me in the eye .
Those blazing  light brown eyes. They looked almost  golden whenever she was angry.
Beautiful. 
She was beautiful and I was ruthless  enough  to break her.
Keria slaza .
Daughter  of one of my all time favorite  teacher's and the one who had a devastating hold on my strong heart.

Never in a million years did I think  that I will fall for a girl (perks of being  the bad boy  I guess ) let alone her.
She came into my life like a hurricane  and toppled me with emotions that I never knew that I am capable  of upholding. 
I tried . God I tried!
I knew from the moment we met before her house, six months ago.
The moment  she fell on top of me and literally ripped my 'ball's' out ,once she knew where  her hands fell upon.
The moment  I saw colour rise from her neck to her plush cheek.
I knew .
I knew  I was goner.
She was different,  so different  that every time I tried to look past her and get her out of my head by graciously accepting the easy lays, I ended up feeling guilty.
Yes you read that right ,G U I T Y.
When  in the fucking world did I felt guilty  for my actions  let alone for the one thing that I have a reputed name for!
Man I was whipped .

And then she was gone . Like a smoke in the thin air.
I went to her place the very next day . For some godforsaken reason ! I wanted to see her.
I wanted  to see those brown eyes.
Fierce yet calm as the wide ocean.
She had a way to lure me into her enchantment.
I waited.
I knew I would wait for her till the cosmos collided or when the sun finally has gotten tired of shining  bright and wanted to finally  get some rest.
I knew I wanted her but I was too busy being  a first class jerk that I never wanted to accept the truth.
When it was almost midnight  and she had not yet come, i left. Not because  the cosmos collided but because  I was a mess.
I was a mess of emotions  and she was my only cure.
God ! When in the fucking world did I become a poet?
Though  I left and never heard or got a call from her. I never gave up. I can't and i won't.  Not even in a million years.
I knew I sounded like a love Sick puppy but,
I.  Cannot. Give.  Up.
The days passed by in a blurr.
I was being  or at least trying to be my old self again.
It was almost three months  and then just like the world had a plan of it's own ,she came into my life. Again.
One day when I was aimlessly  surfing  my Facebook page which  was mostly  filled with girls trying  to charm their way into my pants!
Crazy? I know!
I was bored and I was vexed.
I heard a 'ting' from my mobile  indicating that a notification  was unread by me.
I opened it to find the one thing that I needed to save my sanity.
It was her.
Keiria.
I felt like the fucking  happiest person on planet earth. 
I felt lucky . Heck! I felt whole.
With a happy grin plastered on my face I accepted her friend request.
I was breaking  my head to come up with a way to text her without  sounding like a flirt  . I knew that she knew about my well known reputation  which I was pretty darn proud of until Keiria  swayed her way into my life. It was more like she  fell on top of me and almost  ripped me of my manhood.